so go snort the gun powder that you thought was crack
i'm tired.
got back about an hour ago from our 150 mile bike ride.
my ass hurts.
i had my second near-death experience.
my knee is killing me.
i miss jess.
i want to hug and kiss her.
i miss amelia.
she needs a hug too.
i really really really miss my jess.
i have to continue doing out-patient.
for i don't know how long.
dr. snow thinx that telling me how long will
"negatively affect my recovery"
whatever. that's bull-shit.
not knowing is only making me angry and helpless.
i miss jess.
thanx to her lecture i HAVE been doing better
both at holly hill AND at home.
i haven't drinken in 3 weeks
even though there's a 3/4 full bottle of vodka
hiding in the freezer behind some frozen peas
and two beer bottles in fridge.
i'm all proud of myself.
i haven't raised my voice to my parents
(or anyone else for that matter)
in...lets say about a week.
i'm all proud of myself.
i'm kinda nervouse about what'll happen
when i DO get out of holly hill.
my grades are already poor
and plus i'll have like,
over 2 weeks of make-up work to do.
this is kinda freaking me out.
i really really really don't want to
repeat 10th grade.
and it seems that that is a real possibility as of now.
-shivers-
FUCK.
i'm gonna go eat goldfish for dinner.
i love you jess!!!!
WHOEVER HASN'T HEARD OF EMERY SHOULD GO OUT AND BUY THE CD. DO IT NOW, DO IT NOW!!!!! (your lord and master, foamy)
got back about an hour ago from our 150 mile bike ride.
my ass hurts.
i had my second near-death experience.
my knee is killing me.
i miss jess.
i want to hug and kiss her.
i miss amelia.
she needs a hug too.
i really really really miss my jess.
i have to continue doing out-patient.
for i don't know how long.
dr. snow thinx that telling me how long will
"negatively affect my recovery"
whatever. that's bull-shit.
not knowing is only making me angry and helpless.
i miss jess.
thanx to her lecture i HAVE been doing better
both at holly hill AND at home.
i haven't drinken in 3 weeks
even though there's a 3/4 full bottle of vodka
hiding in the freezer behind some frozen peas
and two beer bottles in fridge.
i'm all proud of myself.
i haven't raised my voice to my parents
(or anyone else for that matter)
in...lets say about a week.
i'm all proud of myself.
i'm kinda nervouse about what'll happen
when i DO get out of holly hill.
my grades are already poor
and plus i'll have like,
over 2 weeks of make-up work to do.
this is kinda freaking me out.
i really really really don't want to
repeat 10th grade.
and it seems that that is a real possibility as of now.
-shivers-
FUCK.
i'm gonna go eat goldfish for dinner.
i love you jess!!!!
WHOEVER HASN'T HEARD OF EMERY SHOULD GO OUT AND BUY THE CD. DO IT NOW, DO IT NOW!!!!! (your lord and master, foamy)