I don't know..o.o
Meh, that last entry, I don't like it anymore so I deleted it.
I need to remind myself to be a minature buddha and be helpful and stuff, not shy. Being proactive makes me a alot more happy.
I think I'm gonna get a haircut, my hair's getting long again. Short hair is nice during the summer and I plan on going to the lake a lot with my folks and hopefully hike around there. I remember when I held a rattlesnake I found there (I know I know, very stupid I'm sorry) but what can I say? I have a way with most animals and she was just as calm as a sleeping kitten while I let her glide through my hands. Didn't rattle her tail once either. o.o
But hey, I've been making a real effort to try and listen to more upbeat music(my version of upbeat) Like the Mars Volta, interpol, panic at the disco, and, oddly, some mindless self indulgence. I cave on occasion and listen to Nine Inch Nails and Heretics but I've been able to keep fairly happy.
I think it helps :)
Oh! I'm coming home thurs. I'm so excited now, I get to see my niece and nephew, I get to see my kitties. ^ ^ and the horsies and dogs and birds and whatever else we have now, lol.
I'm coming home so early cause David's taking a trip to Oregon. I might go but I think I'd rather be home for now.
Lets see, the next big step? Moving out into an appartment I think..that or getting my own car. Might just be given the BMW but I don't know. I don't know what the future holds and I try not to think about it cause it makes me sad, I get overwelmed and such.
They say "live one day at a time"and lately I think it's a good motto to live by.
I think the minor step would be for me to find a job in my new/old home that I'll enjoy. I was going to get an enviromental job but the office for it is located in San Fran. *shrug* I'll find something else.
I need to remind myself to be a minature buddha and be helpful and stuff, not shy. Being proactive makes me a alot more happy.
I think I'm gonna get a haircut, my hair's getting long again. Short hair is nice during the summer and I plan on going to the lake a lot with my folks and hopefully hike around there. I remember when I held a rattlesnake I found there (I know I know, very stupid I'm sorry) but what can I say? I have a way with most animals and she was just as calm as a sleeping kitten while I let her glide through my hands. Didn't rattle her tail once either. o.o
But hey, I've been making a real effort to try and listen to more upbeat music(my version of upbeat) Like the Mars Volta, interpol, panic at the disco, and, oddly, some mindless self indulgence. I cave on occasion and listen to Nine Inch Nails and Heretics but I've been able to keep fairly happy.
I think it helps :)
Oh! I'm coming home thurs. I'm so excited now, I get to see my niece and nephew, I get to see my kitties. ^ ^ and the horsies and dogs and birds and whatever else we have now, lol.
I'm coming home so early cause David's taking a trip to Oregon. I might go but I think I'd rather be home for now.
Lets see, the next big step? Moving out into an appartment I think..that or getting my own car. Might just be given the BMW but I don't know. I don't know what the future holds and I try not to think about it cause it makes me sad, I get overwelmed and such.
They say "live one day at a time"and lately I think it's a good motto to live by.
I think the minor step would be for me to find a job in my new/old home that I'll enjoy. I was going to get an enviromental job but the office for it is located in San Fran. *shrug* I'll find something else.