i kinda feel bad
because as annoying as it gets to some of you, thinking all i do is complain and all, haha, its my ventilation system, of sorts.
3DR is doing really, well, i'm thoroughly. its definitely the best thing going for me.
everything else is, well, this is where i can come off really negative, well. i don;t know. i hate...as selfish as it sounds, well everyone i guess would say this. but i'm so sick of some of this stuff, man. being completely dictated by two smart a$$ people who think they should rule the whole dang world. i get so crazy sick of it, it really just...i hate it so much. i'd kill for almost any exit.
and well, you all know how that story goes. i'm just wondring, how much longer, i can take this. i don't know...mad props to real people who fight harder battles with a far better attitude, because, i feel like i am so Done with this stuff.
school's such a drag, for many reasons in of itself, my home life's strangling me, i feel like i'm so struggling to keep, going on, maybe. i'm here for a reason, this is all a means to a divine plan, and i'm not supposed to quit, but i feel like i'm at the edge man.
i'm not supposed to use profane language, but God, I'm so fucking sick of doing this. there has to be more to it than this. its like showbread said, Nihilism isn;t the answer, there's hope yet, but...Lord, it can't come sooner, and You know this...
i really wish they went back to hitting. physical pain is so much better than the emotional stuff, you know.
i'm such an idiot, for getting myself in situations. but, until i completely lose it, i'll see what margaret has to say, to confirm some bad issues. if its around what i think it is, man, i'll freakin quit haha. it'll be so awful.
i can't do this anymore, there's got to be Some kind of a freaking solution, there has to be. there has to be, there has to be. why am i acting like this, why do these things mean so much to me. its just person, and they're just really bad people.
this is the way i...should have done this...up against the wall, up against the wall...
*sigh*. I can't drown...i'm not done here yet...*sigh*
time to do my psych worksheets on parenting styles and self-esteem.
3DR is doing really, well, i'm thoroughly. its definitely the best thing going for me.
everything else is, well, this is where i can come off really negative, well. i don;t know. i hate...as selfish as it sounds, well everyone i guess would say this. but i'm so sick of some of this stuff, man. being completely dictated by two smart a$$ people who think they should rule the whole dang world. i get so crazy sick of it, it really just...i hate it so much. i'd kill for almost any exit.
and well, you all know how that story goes. i'm just wondring, how much longer, i can take this. i don't know...mad props to real people who fight harder battles with a far better attitude, because, i feel like i am so Done with this stuff.
school's such a drag, for many reasons in of itself, my home life's strangling me, i feel like i'm so struggling to keep, going on, maybe. i'm here for a reason, this is all a means to a divine plan, and i'm not supposed to quit, but i feel like i'm at the edge man.
i'm not supposed to use profane language, but God, I'm so fucking sick of doing this. there has to be more to it than this. its like showbread said, Nihilism isn;t the answer, there's hope yet, but...Lord, it can't come sooner, and You know this...
i really wish they went back to hitting. physical pain is so much better than the emotional stuff, you know.
i'm such an idiot, for getting myself in situations. but, until i completely lose it, i'll see what margaret has to say, to confirm some bad issues. if its around what i think it is, man, i'll freakin quit haha. it'll be so awful.
i can't do this anymore, there's got to be Some kind of a freaking solution, there has to be. there has to be, there has to be. why am i acting like this, why do these things mean so much to me. its just person, and they're just really bad people.
this is the way i...should have done this...up against the wall, up against the wall...
*sigh*. I can't drown...i'm not done here yet...*sigh*
time to do my psych worksheets on parenting styles and self-esteem.