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I forgot just how good it feels to be in your arms, and how good it feels to be loved the way you love me. It wasn't a mistake and I hope we don't regret it. It was the way I always wanted it to be, and you were the man I fell in love with. I don't know what happened, or how we changed, or why it turned out this way. I know that you're the person you used to be, the one I longed to hold onto because I knew that even when you're mine I can't keep you for myself, it was what I fell for in the first place. I'm sorry I cried when you kissed me, believe me it felt good. I don't know where either of us are going, but I don't care right now, we were the way we should have always been, and I knew that I was all you saw, all you felt, and all you thought last night, I was your world. You know I hate to share you, but if that's what I have to do to keep you the way you are then so be it, because you are the you that I want, that I crave, and that I missed so very much.
Maybe I just didn't get that you changed for me, but I wish you hadn't, I wish I could have let you understand how much I love you the way you are, and I wish you could be mine and be you at the same time, I wish I could be me too and be yours. I don't want to be someone's housewife, and I don't want it to be boring, or the same old same old, all the time. I take comfort in all of that but it sucks the life out of people.
We did things we'd never done before, or never done the way we did them, and it was amazing, it was the kind of night I dreamed about having with you since we met, and you didn't let me down. you didn't judge me and I didn't feel like the whore I used to feel like. People have opened my eyes, and I'm glad and I'm happy, and I still miss you, I always will, because I love you. All the blandness was gone, and all I wanted to do was make you feel good, it was the best feeling in the world. Ah babe you are the greatest, and even if you're never mine I'll always know that I was yours and I'll always know that I was all you wanted once, all you needed once, and all you ever could have wished for.
I nope neither of us are ever the people we turned into again, I am happy and I feel so free of every little stupid misconception I ever felt when we were together, and I felt like we were on fire, it was all I ever hoped for. Thanks, somehow you always have a way of making me feel so good even if you're not mine.
Maybe I just didn't get that you changed for me, but I wish you hadn't, I wish I could have let you understand how much I love you the way you are, and I wish you could be mine and be you at the same time, I wish I could be me too and be yours. I don't want to be someone's housewife, and I don't want it to be boring, or the same old same old, all the time. I take comfort in all of that but it sucks the life out of people.
We did things we'd never done before, or never done the way we did them, and it was amazing, it was the kind of night I dreamed about having with you since we met, and you didn't let me down. you didn't judge me and I didn't feel like the whore I used to feel like. People have opened my eyes, and I'm glad and I'm happy, and I still miss you, I always will, because I love you. All the blandness was gone, and all I wanted to do was make you feel good, it was the best feeling in the world. Ah babe you are the greatest, and even if you're never mine I'll always know that I was yours and I'll always know that I was all you wanted once, all you needed once, and all you ever could have wished for.
I nope neither of us are ever the people we turned into again, I am happy and I feel so free of every little stupid misconception I ever felt when we were together, and I felt like we were on fire, it was all I ever hoped for. Thanks, somehow you always have a way of making me feel so good even if you're not mine.