Angel is the Centerfold....

[dark_ender]

So.. watching comedy central late at night, and those Girls gone wild commercials start playing

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[nuchtchas]

that is like when a friend of mine saw a girl he dated in HS in some amature porn mag. He was so pissed because she was a major prude when he dated her

[dark_ender]

Difference being this is the girl I never got over. -L-

[nuchtchas]

I can only imagine how that burns

[dark_ender]

Not in the way you'd think.
In the "I'm jealous" Way, actually.
Jealous that she is still living the life that drew the two of us together in the first place.. still enjoying and having fun.

And I rot here.
And so many people say those utter bullshit fucking crap words that "It means so much that your caring for her"

Doesnt mean a fucking thing when you keep looking at yourself in self loathing for what you've let yourself get stuck in.

But really, I look at it as justice. As Karma.
If I hadn't fucked a friends wife, mother of his children, I wouldn't be stuck in this hell hole, rotting away and hating my currently life, loving her and not able to walk away as I should. Its justice, no? It sucks, but we all knew I had it coming. -L-

God life must be so easy for women. If your cute money never matters. The world is open to you. -L-

[nuchtchas]

Life is not that way for women, and honestly, she is on girls gone wild, I highly doubt her life is in any great place right now.

She is most likely thinking of herself as a whore and wondering why men never take her seriously (gee I wonder) and yeah life can suck at times, and you can blame yourself for the choices you have made, but those choices are already made. You can't change that, you can only act and work on what your life can be from now on.

Sure cute girls can find a guy and rely on him to "take care of her" but that is no different then being a prostitute IMHO, I could not imagine a worse life. It is nothing more then a prison you have made for yourself, and once your looks go what do you have then? Next, if you are cute it makes it hard for you to be respected in the workplace and say what you will for every dumb chick who glides on her looks there is a cute girl with brains who has to suffer. It is chicks like that that give real women a bad name... but I am not going to rant on that *S*

[dark_ender]

I really really doubt it. -BOL- About where her life is, I mean. ^_^ You'd have to know her. She's laughing her ass off the same way I would be if I'd just been in a porn.

[nuchtchas]

so you think being in GGW is a high point of her life? that is a pitty

[dark_ender]

-BOL- No, not a high point. Something to LAUGH about, something to look back on and giggle about, as age takes away the ability to do random crazy things, you can look back with pride and pleasure and say "I've lived.. alot of it was dumber than shit, but I did it. Other fuckheads can sit and fucking judge, believing they know better, but they haven't done it, and until they do, they can go fuck themselves when they try and tell me what I should or shouldn't have done."

[nuchtchas]

I don't know, I just think that women rarely look back on things like this the way guys do, but then again, that might just be me

[dark_ender]

It might. And the reason I liked her was because she was SOOOO unlike any other woman I'd ever known. -L-