ok im updating..
So the Gathering started this morning..and I am home. Yes, home. Blah. But tomorrow night I leave for NJ to see Jimmy for Grandma Fay's birthday. Which isnt actually until the day I leave...blah. Atleast Jimmy remembered to tell me to bring my bathing suit this time.
Big drama happened a few days ago. Basically all sprouting from the damn Board. So if no one noticed..and if you have you officially liveunder a ROCK..Jimmy made a diss track about Ian, Ian got all pussy about it and is all "imma come at u hard" and shit.. Max, is taking Ian's side. Now I don't particularly blame Max for that, but I do blame him for is coming to me about it. Telling mea ll thsi shit on why Jimmy did it and wtf does he think he has a right to do it and all that bullshit.
Now I know for the last year I have gone to Max about every little thing that has pissed me off about Jimmy that I needed someone to talk to about it and he's been there for me. But the whole shit with Ian and Jimmy, aside it not being my business, it's not really Max's either. So for him to come and bitch to me about the fucking song reallyreally pissed me off. Everyone has been IMing me about it and shit and I'm sick of it. Can no one understand that if you are going to be a rap artist, expect to hear a diss track about you? And even then, the diss track wasn't even a diss track. If someone saying "Fuck you" and telling the truth is a diss track..I'd like to know what the ones that tell you how they are going to cut your damn head off word for word is called.
So, I said some shit in #TD about the shit I was going through with Max and I exaggerate, I won't lie I know I did it. And fucking Dustion copied and pasted the shit to Max, so of course Max freaked out on me about not having my "shit straight". What I said was basically that me and Max were arguing about somethign I didn't want to be involved with at all and had stayed out of PURPOSELY on the Board because I'm sick of being involved with shit that has to do with Jimmy rapping, and that Max and me were friends and he (to directly quote myself so there is no confusion) "is in love with me and therefore hates Jimmy", now he told me otherwise after he said that, but I wouldn't exactly be lieing about it either. I did infact exaggerate but I did NOT lie. The way the boy talks to me (and yes how I at one point kinda talked to him) there wouldn't be any doubt in someone's midn that there are/were feelings there. And he has told me in the past that if I wasn't with Jimmy he'd try to be with me. So how am I to not assume there are more than just "poke n tickle" feelings on his end? I mean seriously, wouldn't you?
So now me and Max aren't friends because I apparently can talk all I want to him about what I don't liek about Jimmy but when he does, I can't take it. Now, I understand that but at the same time, what he was talking about with me is something I TOLD him from the minute he mentioned it that I didn't want a part of and didn't want to talk about, but he kept saying shit, so I gave it to him back. And even before the diss track came out, I told him that out of respect for me, keep his opinion of Jimmy's rapping skills to himself. I don't want tohear about it because to be flat out honest, Max has a shit load of talent but won't do shit about it, and Jimmy is, so I'd rather listen to the guy who may not have a shitload of talent and probably is going somewhere than the guy with some talent and won't make it past Phat Or Whack. I love Max, I've loved him for so long he is/was my best friend, but if he can't handle a "I dont want to talk about it" than thats on him. I'll deal without him.
And also, this is for Lori cuz I know ur gonna read, dear, he's a great guy so follow your heart about him even if your head is telling you to not.
ANYWHOOOOOO
3 weeks until I leave for Disney. I'm giving Jimmy's parents half of what I owe them for my park tickets this weekend so I'm not giving them nothing at all, and the other half the day I get up there for it so that way they atleast have something to put towards my tickets. I feel really shitty about not giving it all to them at once or let alone so close to us leaving, but fucking shit I'm paying out the ass for is balls right now.
Alrighty i'll be back on Sunday, don't miss me too much guys and check out www.hatchetradio.com/radio if you haven't seen the new site yet!!
much love to all
Big drama happened a few days ago. Basically all sprouting from the damn Board. So if no one noticed..and if you have you officially liveunder a ROCK..Jimmy made a diss track about Ian, Ian got all pussy about it and is all "imma come at u hard" and shit.. Max, is taking Ian's side. Now I don't particularly blame Max for that, but I do blame him for is coming to me about it. Telling mea ll thsi shit on why Jimmy did it and wtf does he think he has a right to do it and all that bullshit.
Now I know for the last year I have gone to Max about every little thing that has pissed me off about Jimmy that I needed someone to talk to about it and he's been there for me. But the whole shit with Ian and Jimmy, aside it not being my business, it's not really Max's either. So for him to come and bitch to me about the fucking song reallyreally pissed me off. Everyone has been IMing me about it and shit and I'm sick of it. Can no one understand that if you are going to be a rap artist, expect to hear a diss track about you? And even then, the diss track wasn't even a diss track. If someone saying "Fuck you" and telling the truth is a diss track..I'd like to know what the ones that tell you how they are going to cut your damn head off word for word is called.
So, I said some shit in #TD about the shit I was going through with Max and I exaggerate, I won't lie I know I did it. And fucking Dustion copied and pasted the shit to Max, so of course Max freaked out on me about not having my "shit straight". What I said was basically that me and Max were arguing about somethign I didn't want to be involved with at all and had stayed out of PURPOSELY on the Board because I'm sick of being involved with shit that has to do with Jimmy rapping, and that Max and me were friends and he (to directly quote myself so there is no confusion) "is in love with me and therefore hates Jimmy", now he told me otherwise after he said that, but I wouldn't exactly be lieing about it either. I did infact exaggerate but I did NOT lie. The way the boy talks to me (and yes how I at one point kinda talked to him) there wouldn't be any doubt in someone's midn that there are/were feelings there. And he has told me in the past that if I wasn't with Jimmy he'd try to be with me. So how am I to not assume there are more than just "poke n tickle" feelings on his end? I mean seriously, wouldn't you?
So now me and Max aren't friends because I apparently can talk all I want to him about what I don't liek about Jimmy but when he does, I can't take it. Now, I understand that but at the same time, what he was talking about with me is something I TOLD him from the minute he mentioned it that I didn't want a part of and didn't want to talk about, but he kept saying shit, so I gave it to him back. And even before the diss track came out, I told him that out of respect for me, keep his opinion of Jimmy's rapping skills to himself. I don't want tohear about it because to be flat out honest, Max has a shit load of talent but won't do shit about it, and Jimmy is, so I'd rather listen to the guy who may not have a shitload of talent and probably is going somewhere than the guy with some talent and won't make it past Phat Or Whack. I love Max, I've loved him for so long he is/was my best friend, but if he can't handle a "I dont want to talk about it" than thats on him. I'll deal without him.
And also, this is for Lori cuz I know ur gonna read, dear, he's a great guy so follow your heart about him even if your head is telling you to not.
ANYWHOOOOOO
3 weeks until I leave for Disney. I'm giving Jimmy's parents half of what I owe them for my park tickets this weekend so I'm not giving them nothing at all, and the other half the day I get up there for it so that way they atleast have something to put towards my tickets. I feel really shitty about not giving it all to them at once or let alone so close to us leaving, but fucking shit I'm paying out the ass for is balls right now.
Alrighty i'll be back on Sunday, don't miss me too much guys and check out www.hatchetradio.com/radio if you haven't seen the new site yet!!
much love to all