yay for drugs

[dark_angel_tea]

I got really sick on friday and left school early. I decided to sell some of my old cloths on this forum kinda thingy..yeh terrible idea. It turned out to be an easy way to make my life more stressful cause I have to organize who wants what and whether or not I should let them sent checks internationaly. On top of this I MOTHER FUCKING HATE MATH! I basicly gave up on it, so if I fail the test tomorrow morning I know why. I'm also SO FAR behind on my art project...which I might start working on after this entry. And wait theres more, Michael makes me feel like shit all the time. He thinks its stupid that I set goals that are to high for me.....like going to college. WTF!? He thinks I'm trying to be "societies lil angel" by what? going to school. Yeh, so he really makes me feel wonderful about myself. *complete fucking sarcasm* oh yeh...and the SAT is on my birthday...which sucks cause I havent been doing the practice book so yeh I'll probably get a terribly low score. And today I actually pondered whether I want to drop out of the IB...

My mom keeps asking me what I want for my b-day, frankly I wish we could pretend it was a normal day. So we went to these random antic stores and she bought me this pendant the very victorean broach kinda things. She told me it was my birthday present. Its beautiful dont let me say otherwise, its just that it reminds me that I'm growing oldera and the wonder is being lost. My mom doesent seem to know much about me anymore...birthday and other holidays as such are just becoming a negative thing. I dont know maybe I'm ungrateful...*sigh* I'm done bitching...I hope