can't take much more of anyting......

[dark_angel_sfd]

life sux and theres is no better way to put it. There is nothing in general thats bothering me ive just felt like something is wrong here. Im not doing something right, when i figure it out ill tell you. As i have previously stated im still looking for the right girl. There is that whole hide and seek bit but i really don't think ill be searching much longer, yes thats right im giving up. Im tired of being the person who looks i want to swicth places only i don't want to hide. Instead i'd rather stand out in the open, My new philosophy is let her come to you. I'd rather sit back and wait for alittle while or at least until i have the confidence and spirit to look again. Im also tired of hearing myself complain which is ironic because im complaining about it. But i really do need to get up off my ass and do something. Ive been sitting around feeling depressed for far to long and it all started this year so it's a whole new experince. But im tired of it. Tired of feeling shitty everyday, tired of feeling worthless, tired of feeling tired. I NEED TO DO SOMETHING and thats what i plan to do...... just as soon as i figure out what it is ill be doing.

i think im going to go for a walk tomorrow just to sort things out who cares if the 12th is my brothers b-day he obviously did't care about mine so why not take a walk and leave the house for a little? Who knows maybe it will do me some good..... if anyone wants to join me ill most likely be walking around packanack lake so join me if u like but idk i might not even do that i might just walk over to the sound exchange y my house and buy myself a cd although i don't know what i want hmmm i guess thats what ill go do right now im going to go figure out what cd i want. And to tell you the truth ive been EXTREMLY PISSED OFF hmm i wonder why... well i guess im done going on my little rave so ill go now.....