Domineering Hearts Chapter 4
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Warnings: OOCness, language, slight bouts of insanity/schizophrenia, violence, child abuse, slight blood and gore, tons of possible typos, unbeta'd
A/N: damn, I so wanted to post this on the 6th TT^TT but it was only half done…thank you all for being patient with me…even though I'm a lazy ass…your reviews fuel me! Thank you so much for them and I really, reallyapologize for this being late….
Ps: work SUCKS!
Pss: I got myself a better one so it doesn't suck as much now =)
Enjoy!
Chapter 4 - Return to Darkness
Kuu woke up seeing darkness. It was something she was used to seeing since she was born…no created in that place they called a laboratory. She didn't have any parents, no family…she was alone. No one cared about her.
"Hey, are you awake?"
Her head turned towards the voice she heard, seeing bright gray eyes. 'So pretty.' She could see something else within them, but it was too faint for her to put a name to the emotion that flickered only briefly in those gray depths. He smelt familiar to her though, but the feeling she got from him wasn't the same.
"I got you some food, can you eat?" Allen asked, moving closer to the young girl. He placed a plate of sandwiches on the night table beside her. "Wait let me get the lights."
A hand on his shirt prevented him from moving an inch. He looked down at the girl. Even in the dark he could see her big slanted eyes, staring up at him.
"Why are you being kind mister," Kuu asked. "I'm a stranger."
"You're hurt," Allen replied simply. "That's why I'm helping you. A young girl like you shouldn't be out on the street alone."
"You're kind," Kuu said as she released Allen's shirt. "Just like that pretty guy before. He didn't want to hurt me…even if he could have killed me easily. You're just like him."
Allen didn't know if he wanted to be compared to someone who would attack a child. This person she was talking about may seem kind in her eyes but he couldn't forgive someone who would strike a kid. He turned on the lights so that the girl could see to eat, but when he did he was surprised to see that she was already done.
"You eat…fast," he complemented as he took up the empty plate. "Are you still hungry?"
Kuu looked at him, seeing that he was the same guy she saw in the canteen earlier. But he felt so different now. Back in the canteen she could easily feel the murderous aura radiating off him in waves, but now. He was calm, normal. As if he wasn't the same person as before.
"I saw you before," she said, watching him with cautious eyes. "You felt," she tried to think of a word, "scary. But even though you were I liked you, because you were like me."
Allen blinked a bit confused. Him, scary? He was beginning to think that she had him mixed up with some other person. "Are you sure it was me that you saw."
Kuu nodded. "Yup, you smell the same."
"Smell?" Allen asked. Things were getting a bit strange.
"My nose is really good," Kuu replied with slight a nod. "My sight and hearing too. Oh my teeth and nails are pretty sharp! They can rip through anything!"
Allen decided to humor the child by agreeing to what ever she said. "So you're like a little kitten huh?"
"Nuh uh," Kuu shook her head, seeming to relax around Allen. "I'm part fox, at least that's what they told me."
That peeked Allen's interest. "Part fox?"
"Yup," Kuu nodded. "I wasn't born like normal people. They made me in a lab."
Allen was beginning to think that she had an overexcited imagination and tended to get carried away. But he wanted to know more about her. He needed to know who where the ones who put such crazy ideas into her innocent mind.
"So do you know who 'created' you?" he asked as he took a seat beside her on the bed.
Kuu frowned. "No but they're dead. The people I work for said they killed them and took me in," she replied. "But they're mean scary people. They beat me a lot if I don't do what they say."
'Child abuse huh,' Allen thought sadly. 'No wonder she mixes reality with her imagination.'
"Isn't there somewhere you can go?"
Kuu shook her head. "They said they'll kill me and who ever I go to," she replied. "I don't want the people who are kind to me to get hurt." She felt a sudden warmth surrounding her and was confused to find herself wrapped in his arms. "Mister?"
"It's too sad," Allen whispered, stroking her hair. "We need to put a stop to what they're doing to you."
Pink eyes blinked in confusion. "What do you mean mister?" she didn't understand.
"Don't you want to get away from all that?" Allen asked. He pulled back, looking into her emotionless pink eyes. "Don't you want to stop hurting? I want to help you."
"If I listen to them I don't get hurt," Kuu said as if that was the normal response. Her eyes still had a hint of confusion in them. She didn't get what he was saying. All she had to do was follow their orders and she would be alright. Besides she didn't mind killing. It felt natural to her now.
Allen looked into those dull eyes, trying to see if there was any humanity left. But he found almost none. It seemed that the tortures that she grew up in had completely shattered her mind. She was broken beyond repair.
'No, I refuse to believe that. I have to help her,' he thought with a shake of his head. 'This poor girl…'
"Don't you want to be free?" he asked, reaching out to take her hand.
"Free?" Kuu asked. She was about to take his hand but she smelt a familiar scent in the air and froze. 'The pretty guy…he's coming.' She got up suddenly. "Sorry mister, I have to go."
"Wait!" Allen tried to reach out to her but she slipped from his grasp. "Where're you going? You're still hurt. At least stay here until that wound is better."
Kuu shook her head and ripped off the bandages that were on her left hand. Allen was shocked to see that the wound was completely healed. 'It can't be…those cuts were deep.'
"No…way," his voice was low. "How can that be?"
"I can heal really quickly," she said getting out of bed. Her eyes dulled a bit when she realized that he must be afraid of her now. "You must think I'm a freak huh?" she turned towards the door. "Sorry mister…bye."
"It's Allen."
Kuu stopped in her tracks and turned back to face Allen. "What?"
"My name," Allen said, smiling. "It's Allen Walker. If you want, you can drop by here anytime. We can talk or if you're up to it we can go somewhere."
"But…aren't you afraid of me?" Kuu asked. She searched his face for any sign of fear of disgust but found none.
"Why would I be?" Allen replied simply. "I'm just a bit surprised at that ability but I'm not going to scorn you for it." He walked over to her and placed his hand on her head. "I want to know more about you. So lets be friends okay?"
Kuu's heart suddenly felt warm and it was an unfamiliar feeling to her. Were her emotions returning? She wondered idly, because even if the feeling was strange she didn't resent it.
"Un!" she replied with a smile of her own. Her eyes were closed to lessen the creepy effect that it might have. "I'm Kuu." She said before she slipped out the door.
"Kuu huh," Allen walked over to the bed and sat down. He flopped back on the mattress, looking up at the ceiling. A dark look suddenly crossed his face and he began chuckling. That chuckle soon broke out into a crazed laugh filled with insanity. He gripped his hair as the laughing continued his eyes wide and unseeing.
"She's perfect," he managed between laughs. "Perfect for what I have planned."
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Kanda clicked his tongue as he recalled what Komui had told him earlier. He couldn't believe they were doing the same experiments here in China that they did in Japan. Not to mention it was an advanced version of the one that was done on him and Alma. He gritted his teeth, completely pissed. His eyes blazed and slanted to slits as he thought about what he and his cousin went through. The pain they endured, the helplessness they felt. Just thinking about it made him itch to rip the ones responsible to shreds. They were already dead, but Kanda just needed someone to vent his anger and frustration on. Damn it, he really needed to fuck.
"Yuu," Alma called out from beside him. He had a worried look on his face. "Did hearing about the experiments upset you that much?"
"Of course!" Kanda growled. "Don't you remember what they did to us? And it was that bastard Hiroki's fault! He used his own son and nephew as research materials for his own fucking benefit."
Alma could see that Kanda was really pissed and didn't seem to be calming down anytime soon. 'Yuu…' he stopped Kanda and pulled him in a fierce hug.
"It's alright to be angry," he whispered softly in a soothing tone. Tears pricked at the corner of his eyes but he didn't let them fall. "They treated us like shit, but we made it out Yuu. We're safe now and nothing like that is going to happen again. We'll find out who was responsible for experimenting on that girl and I'll personally get rid of all who was involved."
Kanda allowed himself to calm down in Alma's arms. He needed to stop thinking about the past. It was over and done with. Alma was right, nothing like that would happen to them again. He clutched Alma's back and rested his head on his shoulder. Suddenly they both tensed.
"Yuu," Alma began as he pulled back. "She's close by."
Kanda raised his head, looking around. "No, it's just a residue of her scent," he sniffed the air, trying to pinpoint the exact location that the scent came from. "It's from this way."
His eyes widened and his heart thrummed in his chest when he realized where that location led. 'No…did she?' He pulled away from Alma and hurried down the hall towards the room where Allen's room was. The scent was faded but still strong.
"Yuu?" Alma was behind Kanda in a heartbeat. He could tell what he was thinking and deep down he hoped the brat had killed that fucking Walker.
Kanda hurried not even stopping until he stood in front of the door. He pushed it open in a rush. "Allen!" he called out.
Allen sat up from the bed. He rubbed his eyes, staring groggily at the people at the door. "Eh? Kanda?" he was confused as to why he was there. "Did something happen?"
Kanda tried to calm down but that was proving harder to do with that girl's scent all over the room. He gritted his teeth.
"Did a young girl come here?" he asked instead of answering his question. "She had pink hair and eyes."
Recognition flickered a bit in Allen's eyes. "Oh you mean Kuu?" he smiled and got out of bed. "I found her outside hurt so I brought her in and treated her wounds. We talked for a while and then she left." His face suddenly became serious. "Kanda, I want to help her. From what I got talking to her, the people she's living with are abusing her. Her mind is completely warped and she needs psychiatric help. But she left before I could get where she lived…"
Kanda tried to digest what Allen just told him. 'She didn't attack him? Why? Didn't she try to kill Komui earlier?'
"What makes you think that?" he asked instead.
"Her eyes," Allen replied with his head down. "It was like she didn't feel anything. Like she couldn't. They lacked emotion, Kanda. I've never seen eyes like hers on a kid so young."
Kanda sighed. "And what do you plan to do for her when you find her?" he crossed his hands at his chest.
"I don't know, get her some help?" Allen replied, raising his head. Determination blazed in those gray depths. "I don't know why but I just feel drawn to help her. She deserves better and I want to help her get the help she needs."
'This is not Allen,' Kanda realized after hearing what the white haired male had to say. The older man was no where near the person that had robbed him of his freedom nearly three years ago. He wasn't the same sadistic bastard who would kill any and everyone to get what he wanted. This kind, harmless person wasn't the one he wanted. 'It's not the same person,' he kept telling himself that. But how could he be different? It was just temporary memory loss. How could that change a person so much?
"Oh, I see," he said after a while. His tone was clipped and he just wanted to leave. How could Allen just expose him to his world only to abandon him there on his own? "Do what you like." He turned to leave but a hand on his prevented him from leaving.
"Did she do something?" Allen questioned. Gray eyes locked with Kanda's and the latter blinked. "Do you know how she got hurt?"
Kanda yanked his hand from Allen's hold. "No," he lied as he avoided looking into Allen's eyes. "It's nothing. Just forget I ever said anything."
He turned to leave and Alma followed, after glaring at Allen. The door slid shut and Allen stared at it blankly. He blinked and walked closer, leaning against the closed door.
"You're lying to me," he whispered in a dark tone. His eyes flashed dangerously and he slammed his fists against the hard frame. "You're getting further away from me. Is this mind the cause of it?" He reached out for his neck, wrapping both hands around it. "Shall I destroy this pathetic, fragile mind?"
Suddenly he pulled away from the door, looking around in confusion. He felt his hands around his neck and jerked them back in surprise. What was he trying to do?
"What was I just doing?" he suddenly felt really afraid…afraid of himself. His neck throbbed and he walked over to the mirror. A startled gasp spilled from his lips when he saw the faint red marks around his neck. Was he really trying to strangle himself? "What is going on?" He felt himself sinking into the darkness surrounding him. "I'm loosing it…I really am loosing it…"
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Kuu gritted her teeth at the hard slap she got. She wouldn't cry because it didn't hurt. Somehow she felt it would hurt her more if Allen was injured. Since he wasn't she would be alright. After all she'd be fully heal after she rested. She raised her head, giving her attacker a bloody smile but that only got her a fist to the face.
"Stop," the man who looked like the boss called out. His dark, squinty eyes regarded the child on the ground coldly. "Kuu, you failed your mission."
Kuu didn't have the energy to move anymore. "Hm-mm…" she replied, not caring anymore what was done to her. "…strong."
"They were that strong eh?" the man continued. He walked over to Kuu, stooping down to her. "You couldn't beat them?"
"…no," Kuu replied, she coughed and blood spilled from her lips. Her lungs burned but for some reason she couldn't feel the pain anymore. She only felt numb.
That response pissed the man off and he stood up. Without warning he kicked out, hitting Kuu right in her stomach. She rolled a few meters back and promptly fell unconscious.
"That's not what I want to hear damn brat," he snarled out. "Oi take her to her room. When she's wakes up send her on a hit. I have no use for weaklings."
One of the men standing there walked over to Kuu's body. He stooped down and grabbed a hold of one of her legs, dragging her across the room as if she was garbage.
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This time when Kuu woke up, it was to the darkness that she hated. The one that was always cold. She thought that she was used to it but after meeting Allen, she yearned for those warm arms again. He didn't treat her like she was a monster and had actually taken care of her when she was hurt. Maybe she wasn't like they all told her. Could she have possibly been born just like a normal person?
"Was I ever normal?" she voiced in the empty room. There was no reply. Of course there wouldn't be. She brought her legs to her chest and hugged them. "I want to talk to Allen…"
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A day had passed and he hadn't heard anything from that fast healing girl, Kuu. She didn't make any promises to show up but he swore that she would. Kanda was practically avoiding him and the instances where his mind would black out were increasing. Half of the time he found himself in places he didn't remember going. What did that mean? Was his memory playing tricks on him? Or was the person he was now ceasing to exist? He didn't know what the hell was going on, but he was damn freaked out about it.
He pushed open the door to his room with a sigh, almost jumping out of his skin when he saw the figure sleeping on his bed. 'Is that Kuu?' He moved closer, seeing that the small form was indeed the little pink haired girl. She looked peaceful sleeping there and he almost didn't want to wake her. Her nose twitched ever so cutely and then her eyes opened to slits first. When she realized Allen was there, her face seemed to light up.
"I came and you weren't there," she said, suddenly shy. "Sorry I fell asleep. It was peaceful and warm here."
Allen shook his head and took a seat beside her. "It's alright, I was wondering when you would show up," he smiled at her. "I'm glad you did though."
That fluttering feeling came back to Kuu's heart. She idly wondered if that was how it felt to be around a loving parent. A light blush covered her cheeks as she thought that. She never knew of a parent's love so she couldn't be sure.
"Aw you're blushing," Allen said as he poked her reddening cheeks. "So cute."
Kuu blinked. "I'm cute?"
Allen nodded with a smile. "You're really cute Kuu," his voice was teasing as he poked her sides. "Cute little Kuu-chan~"
She giggled as Allen poked her side but the she felt something wet falling down her cheeks. To her surprise she was crying. She touched her face as the tears spill from her eyes with no indication that they would stop.
"Kuu?" Allen asked shocked to see her tears.
"Eh? I can't stop it," Kuu began. She wiped the tears but more only spilled. "It won't stop."
Allen pulled her towards him and wrapped his arms around her. She seemed to relax in his arms and her tears stopped.
"Ah, it stopped…" she voiced.
"It's alright," Allen cooed. He rubbed her back in a soothing motion. "You poor child." He pulled back and used his thumb to wipe her tears. "I-"
He paused in midsentence as he suddenly felt his vision going dark. 'What the-?' He tried to stay conscious but it was proving to be hard. His eyes dulled for awhile but quickly regained their light.
Kuu sensed something different in Allen's persona and reached out to him. When she did she froze when she saw the eyes that looked at her.
"Who are you?" she asked, tentatively. The person before wasn't the 'kind' Allen. It was the same one she saw in the canteen. "You're not Allen."
A dark smile was her response. He reached out for her and pulled her in his lap.
"Who else would I be?" Allen replied with a smile. He stroked her hair softly. "I am Allen. Now come on don't make that face. There, there good girl."
"You're much colder," Kuu continued. She could tell the difference but for some reason they felt the same. "But…you feel warm too."
Allen patted Kuu on her head and turned her so they were facing the mirror. "Look Kuu," he pointed to their reflection. "Don't we look like father and daughter?"
Kuu's eyes seemed to sparkle when he said that. She appeared happy as she watched the reflection of herself in Allen's lap.
"I can make it a reality," Allen continued. "But first we have to get rid of those guys. Ne Kuu, when the other me comes back tell him you want to go somewhere tomorrow. Our memories aren't linked as yet so he won't remember anything I've said." He rested his cheek on the top of her head.
"Where should we go?" a small twinkle of excitement could be found in her eyes.
Allen smiled. It was a dark and creepy look. "Anywhere you want, my dear daughter," he suddenly blinked and raised his head. "Huh Kuu?"
Kuu felt the coldness leave and quickly turned to face him. "Allen lets go somewhere tomorrow! I wanna go to the park."
Allen was confused for a bit but hearing that Kuu wanted to go outside with him made him ignore it. "Sure I don't mind."
He was still worried about blacking out earlier but seeing that it didn't seem that anything happened. Kuu started talking about where else they could go tomorrow and he smile as he listened, pushing his fears to the back of his mind.
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Allen looked around carefully before he took a step out of his room. He made sure to lock the door softly behind him before he proceeded down the hall. 'I'll have to make sure no one notices that I'm gone.' He stopped when he heard a couple of the hotel staff pass by and quickly hid in the crevice before the end of the hall. Once they passed he came out with a sigh.
"Good no one saw me," he smiled to himself.
"Uh, what ya doin' eh Allen?"
Allen almost jumped out of his skin when he heard the redhead behind him. But instead of showing how freaked out he was, he turned to face Lavi with a calm look on his face.
"Ah Lavi fancy running into you here," he tried to look nonchalant but Lavi was able to se right through him.
"So, going somewhere?" Lavi asked with his hands crossed. "You know Yuu-"
"Yeah I know," Allen replied with a sigh. He knew Kanda didn't want him to wonder off to places he had no idea about. "But I'll be back before you know it. So please don't tell Kanda."
Lavi sighed. "You know I can't do that Allen," he rested the back of his head against the wall. "Yuu would be pissed if I didn't tell him you tried to sneak out. Worst if you ran into any trouble. Even worse if you got hurt."
Allen could understand but it's not like he was doing something dangerous. He was just going to the amusement park with Kuu for the day. It was completely harmless.
"Lavi come on," he begged. "I'll be back before nine tonight and its not like Kanda will care." His expression became sad. "He's been avoiding me recently…"
Understanding flickered across Lavi's emerald eye. He could tell the reason behind Kanda's sudden avoidance. Their raven haired boss was too busy dealing with the elders in the Dokuryuugen. They were complete assholes. Kanda had already made an attempt to secure what they wanted for the deal but they still wouldn't accept it. They even wanted more and Kanda was this close to just saying to hell with the deal and murdering them where they stood. But he knew no matter what they wanted Komui was the one with the last say.
"Yuu's not avoiding you. He's just been pretty busy lately…" he replied. "That's why you should be a good tourist and stay in the hotel."
Allen pouted. "Jeez Lavi I'm not a kid," he rolled his eyes. "I'm way older than you guys so I don't have to listen to you, you know." He turned to leave as he had made up his mind. "I'm going so tell Kanda if you want to or not. I'll be back by nine."
Lavi sighed and as he watched Allen leave. "Yuu's not gonna like this…"
"You're right."
A sigh passed Lavi lips. He had felt Kanda's presence earlier but didn't say anything, hence why he wasn't surprised by the sudden voice. 'Man I have bad luck…'
"Yuu, are you going to stop him?" he asked turning to face Kanda who was dressed in a dark blue and gray Yukata with a black obi.
Deep russet eyes watched as the snowy hair disappeared from sight. He shook his head and turned to head back down the hall. "No," he continued walking.
"But Yuu, there are people out there who wants him dead I'm sure you're not gonna leave him unprotected," that was a no brainer. Of course Kanda wouldn't leave Allen out there without any form of protection.
"I've already got two persons watching him," Kanda replied over his shoulders. "If he doesn't come back in one piece then…" he turned back to face Lavi who flinched from the look on his face, "I'll kill every fucking person who was involved."
Kanda was serious and Lavi knew. He would slaughter them in the worse way imaginable if they so much as touched a hair on Allen's head. And he doubted they would be the only one to face Kanda's wrath. If Kanda wasn't satisfied with killing them he would take it out on anyone who happened to be close by.
Lavi's eye dulled. He didn't like what Kanda had become.
"I know you would Yuu," he replied with a sigh. "That's why it's better if you keep an eye on him. You're free now right?"
Yes Kanda was free, he managed to seal the deal yesterday and had today and the rest of the three days remaining off. He wanted to do something with Allen but it seemed he had other plans.
"I'll be busy," Kanda replied, walking off. "I need to go see Komui today."
Lavi shook his head with a sigh. It was obvious that he came looking for Allen as Alma wasn't with him. He sighed once more and followed after Kanda. If Allen wasn't back by nine, then somebody was sure to die.
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Allen gave a yelp as the roller coaster he and Kuu were in did a literal three sixty degrees spin. He held on to the pink haired girl who seemed to be laughing instead of screaming. That placed a smile on his face. He was glad Kuu was having fun.
They got off the roller coaster and went on various other rides, enjoying the day as a father and daughter would. He bought Kuu anything she asked for, which wasn't much as she was afraid to ask for what she wanted, but he still bought her anything that made her eyes lit up. She was easy to read, he found out after a while and though she was somewhat different from a normal child she too was very childlike. He won her a stuffed fox from a shooting game he entered and was pretty shocked to find out his aim was practically perfect.
"Daddy's aim is perfect!" Kuu yelled out after Allen shot the last plastic frog, winning yet another prize. When Allen looked at her a bit shocked she placed her hands over her mouth as she realized what she just said. She suddenly looked embarrassed and panicked. "Sorry…"
Allen chuckled and a bright smile lined his face. "It's okay!" he pulled her in a hug. "I was thinking about adopting you. Even if Kanda disapproves, I want you to come with me when I leave China." He pulled back and looked down at her. "So will you Kuu? Do you want to be my daughter?"
Kuu nodded and a small smile crossed her face. She remembered to close her eyes so that her smile wouldn't look creepy. Allen smiled too and handed her the stuff cat that he won for her. He took her hands and they headed towards the next ride which turned out to be the merry-go-round. It was only ten minutes after seven so he still had a lot more time with Kuu.
Unknown to them three pairs of dark eyes watched them from the shadows. They looked at Allen and then their eyes trailed to Kuu who was beside him.
"Isn't that Kuu?" one of them asked.
"Yeah it's the monster brat," another replied. "What the fuck is she doing here?"
"That's what I'd like to know," the last one replied. An ugly smirk crossed his face. "Well lets go say hi no?"
They made an attempt to move closer but stopped as two guys dressed in black blocked their path.
"Oi move it," the first one snarled but the other two pulled him back before he could start anything.
"Cool it moron, those guys mean business," the guy whispered harshly. "Let's just go inform the boss. He'll deal with her when she gets back."
The three guys ran off leaving Kanda's bodyguards behind who shrugged off the little encounter, quickly going back to their job of watching Allen. They didn't deem it necessary to report the three guys to their boss but they reported who Allen met up with and that had made their boss pretty pissed. He told them not to let Allen out of their sight and they intend on keeping that order.
A dark smile crossed Allen's lips. He had noticed the other three guys and he couldn't help how perfectly his plan was going. It was just a matter of time before he could finally make his reappearance and he couldn't wait.
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A/N: finally! It's done! TT^TT I'm so glad….! I swore I had no time to sit down and type. Been stuck on page ten for like ever but I managed to wrap it up…and all it needed was three more pages…can you believe that? Damn working really bites. I could have had this done if I wasn't so tired coming back from work - plus it's a night shift and I get in really late! But I got a new job that allows me to type while I'm at work! Yay me~! Now I can work on my stories there. I really hope you guys enjoyed this chapter though even though it was uber late. Write and tell me~ R&R k huns~!
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