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God everything seems to be going down hill. I hate living here. For the past week my dads been yelling at me for being in the bathroom. Threatening to kick my ass calling me a bitch.I just wish he would leave me the fuck alone. I go to school and listen to lil freshman bitches calling me names and talking shit. Then I go home and my dad points out all my mistakes is constanly complaining about me to my mom.I feel worthless and I dont care if I graduate or go anywhere with my life. I know I sound emo but I feel like life is not worth living. I'm having to grow up and i dont know how or where to begin. I'm loosing my friends and constanly pissing people off. I dont feel like I have any friends. Cuz their constanly dropping me. Toni and Cat r the ones I feel closest to right now. And kayla and Misty occasionally but I dont really see them much anymore. I'm not perfect and I make mistakes . But people constanly tare me down for them. I'm not fucking jesus people, i cant walk on fucking water or part the red fucking sea. Anywayz I was riding home with my mom from spending the night at Tonis and I started yelling at my mom bout my dad because she was saying he was pissed off at something that happend over a year ago. And thats the reason he treats me like shit. Then I told her its bullshit because she lets him treat me like shit and she always sticks up for him. She threatened to kill herself and drive into a bunch of cars and I told her to do it. Because I have no ambition and I dont care if I suceed. Then she yelled at me and told me to get a job. She took me to grandmas and then her and dad suposably fought then he came up and got me, Then I got home and he made it seem like everythings my fault. MY mom was on his side . Should I just leave or stay. I'm so confused!