Day 16
A lot of days have gone by since I posted. I haven't been busy. In fact, I've been doing just the opposite; My days have been full of nothingness and boredom. This last week has been spent with a friend, Derek, who came down for a little over a week. Every day around 3pm or so I'd go over to where he was living and spend all day there till my mother and Joe were asleep. It was a nice setup, I wouldn't have to see or hear from either of my "guardians", as I'll continue to refer to them as. As for a rant on Joe, I'd love to!..
Hes brainwashing my mother. He hardly listens to her unless hes looking for sex. Its disgusting now that I see it. And when hes drunk, he has no problem telling others, even guests, to "shut the fuck up and listen to this", as he rants on about a topic no one (at least me) even cares about.
Whats she going on about? Well, just a short while before that I picked up the phone and it was my mom. I haven't picked up her last two calls so it'd been a while since we spoke. So I pick it up and I can already hear her *sigh*. Since I can't recite the phone call: "Get a job". However, instead of the normal "yes, mother" "i'll get right on that" "i've been applying at places" I choose to speak my mind. I think the fact that I just got off the phone, nearly 20 minutes before this, with my real dad and told him how I'd been feeling about the situation helped me express my feelings to my mother better. I told her that I don't want to work, not even for Joe. The money would come out of Joe's pocket, into mine, where I'd waste it, and then he'd still be paying my insurance/bills. So isn't he just wasting twice the amount of money? (note: he wouldn't be hiring someone instead of me, just adding me on the payroll). And as for working for someone else, I don't want to make money to spend money. I want to not have money to spend, and no make money. Why work all the damn time to pay for those things required for work? (car, phone, insurance). I'm done ranting.. I've got a party to attend to tonight.. :D
Hes brainwashing my mother. He hardly listens to her unless hes looking for sex. Its disgusting now that I see it. And when hes drunk, he has no problem telling others, even guests, to "shut the fuck up and listen to this", as he rants on about a topic no one (at least me) even cares about.
Whats she going on about? Well, just a short while before that I picked up the phone and it was my mom. I haven't picked up her last two calls so it'd been a while since we spoke. So I pick it up and I can already hear her *sigh*. Since I can't recite the phone call: "Get a job". However, instead of the normal "yes, mother" "i'll get right on that" "i've been applying at places" I choose to speak my mind. I think the fact that I just got off the phone, nearly 20 minutes before this, with my real dad and told him how I'd been feeling about the situation helped me express my feelings to my mother better. I told her that I don't want to work, not even for Joe. The money would come out of Joe's pocket, into mine, where I'd waste it, and then he'd still be paying my insurance/bills. So isn't he just wasting twice the amount of money? (note: he wouldn't be hiring someone instead of me, just adding me on the payroll). And as for working for someone else, I don't want to make money to spend money. I want to not have money to spend, and no make money. Why work all the damn time to pay for those things required for work? (car, phone, insurance). I'm done ranting.. I've got a party to attend to tonight.. :D