this weekend.....ups and downs
This weekend was...I dont know...it was good...friday morning when i saw her she was happy and stuff and even after school, but as i saw someone that was with her when she was at my school...i knew the rest of my day was gonna be hell. she wanted me to be happy but i just couldnt, i cant be happy after all of the times she made me feel like shit every time she came over. yea we had fun when me and livi were restaling...but i just cant stand her putting me down like im the worst person on earth. its bad enough i gotta have people in shop making me feel like shit. then after dinner she was arranging plans to see nick and one livi's friends couldnt make it so she deceided to bring the chick that was there with us and i was like.....ahhhh nooo dont thats tourcher. then i was like mother fucker!!....now i was gonna have to deal with two people that gotta make me feel like shit...i didnt think saturday could have gone any worse. im starting to get sick and tierd of her friends screwing her over cuz when they screw her over they screw me over and i cant stand it. saturday when i was about to go over there..i was preparing for the worst. then when i got there that chick that was going with us couldnt go....then we just canceled on nick cuz i guess it was raining too much soo i just got a break...(thank god). so i guess this weekend wasnt too bad. i just hate every friday is always gonna be a shitty friday....well thats my life...it blows and i gotta deal with it by my self..cuz i think i should drag other people down with me just cuz i have a shitty, well semi shitty life. i just wana deal with things by my self...i dont wana make every one else feel bad or feel like shit cuz of me. :(