i cant sleep
I left dustin on saturday. I realized that its not normal for him to be angry with me because i talk to other people at parties, and that if he really wants to talk to me he should come over to me and chat, not become angry that i didnt. I cant refer to me as a bitch, and actualy mean it. I cried for over 20 minutes in the car afterward.
that night at gaby's i dreamed that he and i had a beautiful secret pool in the middle of a forest surrounded by bushes. We broke up but met again at the pool, and it was so wonderful that we reunited. I later found out that he had told others about our pool and i left him. he drove across the world while people were chasing him in order to apologize for what he'd done. i woke up and left immediately. But i dont think real dustin would put forth as much effort as dream dustin. after all, he was never the one to call and apologize after a fight.
I did homework while watching a mash marathon. I sleep to escape but they just brough me back to him.
everyone i have talked to has told me i did the right thing. Even impartial judges. they have seen us together, and they have noticed how i have changed, and even though they like dustin, they dont believe i should be with him. But as i lay here crying, i miss him more then i have ever missed anyone.
He is a bitter angry person, and he;s gets jealous and holds grudges. But other than that he's perfect. He cant change, we've faught about this too many times for me to think different. But its SO unfair.
does he not love me enough to change? do i not love him enough to accept him? which should it be? id there someone out there who will always be glued to his side at parties, giving him atleast 51% of her attention?
my skin burns from all the salt.
i want to drive over there
that night at gaby's i dreamed that he and i had a beautiful secret pool in the middle of a forest surrounded by bushes. We broke up but met again at the pool, and it was so wonderful that we reunited. I later found out that he had told others about our pool and i left him. he drove across the world while people were chasing him in order to apologize for what he'd done. i woke up and left immediately. But i dont think real dustin would put forth as much effort as dream dustin. after all, he was never the one to call and apologize after a fight.
I did homework while watching a mash marathon. I sleep to escape but they just brough me back to him.
everyone i have talked to has told me i did the right thing. Even impartial judges. they have seen us together, and they have noticed how i have changed, and even though they like dustin, they dont believe i should be with him. But as i lay here crying, i miss him more then i have ever missed anyone.
He is a bitter angry person, and he;s gets jealous and holds grudges. But other than that he's perfect. He cant change, we've faught about this too many times for me to think different. But its SO unfair.
does he not love me enough to change? do i not love him enough to accept him? which should it be? id there someone out there who will always be glued to his side at parties, giving him atleast 51% of her attention?
my skin burns from all the salt.
i want to drive over there