last night
omg, last night was horrible. i woke up maybe about 3 times becuz the images of this dream repeated, and repeated. its like, i dunno, it was kinda like last nights episode of cowboy bebop with the lil kid and hes just standing there with some guy in a wheel chair. this kid just standing there talking to spyke with his gun pointing out and then starts to shoot. and its just horrible. its me standing there with a gun in my hand, and im not going to say who it was standing there cuz many of u know this person but ya, and im standing there talking to him. and he starts to beg for his life, and next thing i know, im saying go to hell, and i shoot him in the chest. i couldnt help it. it was horrible. i cant get these images out of my head. im so scared, and its replaying its self ever chance it gets. and i remember waking up crying the first time saying im sorry, im sorry and tears are pooring from my face. and its horrible, i cant close my eyes without seeing me standing there with gun shooting someone. i wish i could take it all back, just take every second of it back. i know its just a dream and its not real, but its just horrible how it happened. its just unbelievable.