i hope you had the time of your life

[darialalalalala]

last night was the first night that i realized cecil will no longer be there.
i was thinking about how you never completely get over your ex's
and that cecil and i had discussed that at one point in time.
i had the urge to call him and talk about it
but that's no longer an option.

i will miss hanging out at his house with his amazing family.
i will miss talking to him about things i have told no one else.
i will miss my first love and a truly close friend.