life's a bitch
omg today has been one of the most stressful days of my life. i woke up at noon after having the best sleep of my life, which hasnt been happening too much lately. i was still tired after that. i soooo did not want to get out of bed. i had to ditch my history class to finish that goddamned paper for acting. i did a horrible job on it but whatever at least its done and i turned it in. i went to see dr. botswain all moody. that was errrrrr ok. then i came back having 15 mins left to finish that stupid paper when adam imed me. i was really surprised by that but i realize now why he imed me. he read this journal and wanted to ask me what i did last nite. why? bc he thinks that i hooked up with someone and wants to know any details so he can feel justified in going out and doing the exact same thing. how do i know that? well he got to the point pretty quickly of asking about last nite, which i really didnt have time to explain. this is always how it works out. when we broke up the last time i hooked up with mike and he asked me what i did. surprise surprise the next day i talked to him only to find that he did the exact same thing with some girl. if thats the reason why he wants to talk to me, then fuck it- i'm not telling him shit about anything. its pretty sad that he cant just im me for the simple reason that he wanted to chat with me. if i got the impression that that was what he wanted to do in the first place, i would have no problem with telling him whatever he wanted to know.... but thats not the case so why the hell should i tell him anything??? and i am so going to tell him that when he gets back later and asks me again.
anyway, acting class today was far more than i expected. goddamn. of course @ 3:00 i tried to print that biatch of a paper and my printer decided to fail on me. so i finally get to class 15 mins late and tried to redeem myself with answering the only question he asked. everyone had to read this thing and answer his question. no one was getting it right. he had amy read what her group wrote and apparently he didnt like the way she read it. he made her reread it 5 times to the point where she broke down crying and couldnt stop for the rest of the class. he still kept on her case and wouldn't let her leave either. i answered the question, got nagged by sharon bc apparently it was all a run on sentence. whatever. ironically everytime i'm in that class, what we talk about seems to directly relate to me. today we talked about drama and how there is always the question at the end of whether to resolve it or just agree to disagree. ::cough:: adam ::cough::
so then i got back and had a shit load of psych to do. i chose to go to the pub considering i hadn't eaten anything all day. i went to class, apparently most of the class didnt do the assignments so most of them left. there were a grand total of 6 ppl there for the study session. it was ok. halfway through i just became exhausted and wanted to pass out. i talked to prof. hopkins again after class. i think she and i are building up quite a relationship. we talk as friends, which i really like. i have yet to have a teacher that i'm that close with unlike so many other ppl my age. right now it feels like she's more of a support than all 4 of my therapists. ironic, eh?
anyway, i realized there's a movie i should've watched from the very beginning when adam and i first broke up. it's my favorite movie of all time and i can believe i forgot about it. "splendor in the grass" starring natalie wood (my favorite actress) and warren beatty. that movie is sooooooo perfect for me and this whole situation. i just bought it off of ebay. yayness!! anyway, i'm off to go i dunno get some more dinner, sleep, coffee, tv, whatever.....
anyway, acting class today was far more than i expected. goddamn. of course @ 3:00 i tried to print that biatch of a paper and my printer decided to fail on me. so i finally get to class 15 mins late and tried to redeem myself with answering the only question he asked. everyone had to read this thing and answer his question. no one was getting it right. he had amy read what her group wrote and apparently he didnt like the way she read it. he made her reread it 5 times to the point where she broke down crying and couldnt stop for the rest of the class. he still kept on her case and wouldn't let her leave either. i answered the question, got nagged by sharon bc apparently it was all a run on sentence. whatever. ironically everytime i'm in that class, what we talk about seems to directly relate to me. today we talked about drama and how there is always the question at the end of whether to resolve it or just agree to disagree. ::cough:: adam ::cough::
so then i got back and had a shit load of psych to do. i chose to go to the pub considering i hadn't eaten anything all day. i went to class, apparently most of the class didnt do the assignments so most of them left. there were a grand total of 6 ppl there for the study session. it was ok. halfway through i just became exhausted and wanted to pass out. i talked to prof. hopkins again after class. i think she and i are building up quite a relationship. we talk as friends, which i really like. i have yet to have a teacher that i'm that close with unlike so many other ppl my age. right now it feels like she's more of a support than all 4 of my therapists. ironic, eh?
anyway, i realized there's a movie i should've watched from the very beginning when adam and i first broke up. it's my favorite movie of all time and i can believe i forgot about it. "splendor in the grass" starring natalie wood (my favorite actress) and warren beatty. that movie is sooooooo perfect for me and this whole situation. i just bought it off of ebay. yayness!! anyway, i'm off to go i dunno get some more dinner, sleep, coffee, tv, whatever.....