Bliggety bloo.
Oh man. Cat fucking drama. So, BB (my cat) moved into Luke's apartment last night. He and Luke's cat have only had one fight, and now they just have a consistent stand-off going. But it's SO STRESSFUL. BB keeps crying because he wants me to hold him, but he's too scared to come out of hiding for me to get to him. And when he does come out, he's too anxious to relax. He's even scared of his own reflection now, and he hisses at it. Will he ever come out of hiding? I feel so ridiculousl bad. He's going to hate me. I wanna cry just thinking about it.
Last night after their fight I basically had a mental breakdown. I just started crying and Luke had to stop working on his projects to come hold me. I am genuinely upset because I hate that BB's so scared, and this is right on the tail of me having to give Lusta away, so it's a double-whammy with my cats and it sucks.
I also realized that I'm anxious about all of the big events coming up in my life. First, there's Louisiana in just over a month, then there's Europe in May, then there's the move with Luke to Minneapolis is August . . . . I'm wicked excitd for all of those things, but scared too. They're all so big. And I'm scared to leave Luke for a mont . . . but he said he's gonna do a bunch of various kinds of artwork for me while I'm gone. 3 paintings, 3 poems, and 3 songs! Weeeeeeeee. I love him so much.
I'm so hopeless. He and I spent the morning together, then he had to go to work, and I had to go to a meeting at Bates. Now he's off at some hip hop thing that wasn't my cup of tea. We've only been apart for about 7 and a half hours, and I miss him like crazy. It's ridiculous!
In other news, i have a job! Maybe even two! Wahoooo!!! More on that later, though. BB kept me up since 6am this morning with his whining, so I'm beat. I'm gonna go crawl in bed (well, Luke's bed), go to sleep, and wait fo him to get home!
Last night after their fight I basically had a mental breakdown. I just started crying and Luke had to stop working on his projects to come hold me. I am genuinely upset because I hate that BB's so scared, and this is right on the tail of me having to give Lusta away, so it's a double-whammy with my cats and it sucks.
I also realized that I'm anxious about all of the big events coming up in my life. First, there's Louisiana in just over a month, then there's Europe in May, then there's the move with Luke to Minneapolis is August . . . . I'm wicked excitd for all of those things, but scared too. They're all so big. And I'm scared to leave Luke for a mont . . . but he said he's gonna do a bunch of various kinds of artwork for me while I'm gone. 3 paintings, 3 poems, and 3 songs! Weeeeeeeee. I love him so much.
I'm so hopeless. He and I spent the morning together, then he had to go to work, and I had to go to a meeting at Bates. Now he's off at some hip hop thing that wasn't my cup of tea. We've only been apart for about 7 and a half hours, and I miss him like crazy. It's ridiculous!
In other news, i have a job! Maybe even two! Wahoooo!!! More on that later, though. BB kept me up since 6am this morning with his whining, so I'm beat. I'm gonna go crawl in bed (well, Luke's bed), go to sleep, and wait fo him to get home!