phone call
So I'm still alive .... and while I'm happy at the moment, I'm still depressed. I still feel the need for someone to hold and be held, as well as the desire to know someone intimately and be able to help them in anyway that I could. So nothing has chnaged ....
.... wrong. I talked with Emma just a few minutes ago .... for 3 HOURS!!! At first we just talked about life and then it came around to religion ... like it always seems to do with us (kinda like how my conversations with Ryan always turn to politics for some strange reason). It was awesome! We had a very intuitive conversation in which we both learned more about ourselves and who we are.
Anyway (I say that word waaaaay too much!) having that talk really opened up doors. I really think that I stepped over some lines that I have never stepped over before, but i don't regret it, because it made the comversation (at least in my mind) more interesting and intuitive.
Anyway (there it is again) we've both decided to talk more often and that we'll switch off calling each other ... let's just hope we don't use that many minutes next time!
As to why I'm still depressed, it's because I still want to have a relationship .... some people know exactly what I'm talking about when I say that, especially when seeing other people in their relationsips.
.... wrong. I talked with Emma just a few minutes ago .... for 3 HOURS!!! At first we just talked about life and then it came around to religion ... like it always seems to do with us (kinda like how my conversations with Ryan always turn to politics for some strange reason). It was awesome! We had a very intuitive conversation in which we both learned more about ourselves and who we are.
Anyway (I say that word waaaaay too much!) having that talk really opened up doors. I really think that I stepped over some lines that I have never stepped over before, but i don't regret it, because it made the comversation (at least in my mind) more interesting and intuitive.
Anyway (there it is again) we've both decided to talk more often and that we'll switch off calling each other ... let's just hope we don't use that many minutes next time!
As to why I'm still depressed, it's because I still want to have a relationship .... some people know exactly what I'm talking about when I say that, especially when seeing other people in their relationsips.