What has happened to me?
As the mood thingy says, I'm still confused. Actually, confused might be too weak of a word. I can't quite get a handle on my emotions, and I'm not sure if I really want to. I feel like I either need to scream or cry, but for now I'll just open up to people of my choosing.
I'm so screwed up. I don't think even some of the people who know me best really know. My suicidal streak is gone at least, but I still feel like something is incomplete.
rigth now, I really want to fall in love again ... if it was really love or just misinterpreting emotions. On that note, I don't know which way is up or down and I don't think I'm going to any time soon.
I'm also having trouble with who I should trust. I know that I have people who are there for me, and that they are perfectly trustworthy, it's just that I'm not quite sure what to do. It's me, not them and I don't want to lose any of them since they've done so much for me.
*sigh* what else is there to say ... a lot, but I don't know what it is ... yet anyway.
I'm so screwed up. I don't think even some of the people who know me best really know. My suicidal streak is gone at least, but I still feel like something is incomplete.
rigth now, I really want to fall in love again ... if it was really love or just misinterpreting emotions. On that note, I don't know which way is up or down and I don't think I'm going to any time soon.
I'm also having trouble with who I should trust. I know that I have people who are there for me, and that they are perfectly trustworthy, it's just that I'm not quite sure what to do. It's me, not them and I don't want to lose any of them since they've done so much for me.
*sigh* what else is there to say ... a lot, but I don't know what it is ... yet anyway.