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Apparently Aniki told Sakaki-sama about our background. I...don't really understand why. But today Sakaki-sama called Hajime-sama and me in to talk to him about it. He was mostly asking if Hajime-sama still wanted me as a butler, which...well, I was kind of surprised at how much he seemed like he wanted me to stay. I don't really understand it... But this whole thing shouldn't get in the way of my job, and becoming a better butler, I guess.
But that kind of got me thinking about everything, and...at this rate, I'm not going to be a better butler. Whenever I try to do anything for Hajime-sama, I just start thinking about what happened, and I get angry, or just...distracted, or sad, and...well, mostly I drop things. Or forget things. So I think...I think I need some time away from him.
On Monday, I'm going to go ask Sakaki-sama if I can do an apprenticeship for a few weeks.
But that kind of got me thinking about everything, and...at this rate, I'm not going to be a better butler. Whenever I try to do anything for Hajime-sama, I just start thinking about what happened, and I get angry, or just...distracted, or sad, and...well, mostly I drop things. Or forget things. So I think...I think I need some time away from him.
On Monday, I'm going to go ask Sakaki-sama if I can do an apprenticeship for a few weeks.