I can't fake my feelings... What I feel in my heart is real...
Now that my world is tumbling down... I can try to realize that it's over... But every little thing reminds me of you... Every song on your list... Every Louis Vuitton item I see... Just EVERYTHING... Dammit, this is so hard... SO FUCKEN HARD... u have no idea... I'm sorry that i caused u pain and I would do anything to take it back... If this is all because u wanted to get respect out of me... Well, u got it... I love u so much, u were one of my best friends, or so I thought... I dunno how true that was... All I know is I don't fake my love for someone... AND IF U THINK THAT THE WORDS IN THAT CHALLENGE DAY CARD ARE FAKE... THEN SO HELP ME GOD, I WILL KILL MYSELF! Because I meant EVERY SINGLE WORD in that card... and I ALWAYS will, no matter what the circumstance is... By now u prolly have thrown it away... Butif theres any way u can get it back then that would be nice... Because if u dont want it, I will have it because basically I was giving u my heart in that card... It was my paper heart... if u kno what i mean... I care soooo much about u, u have no idea... i could not stress that enough... I would give anything to be friends with u again... If i had to bring down the stars and moon to show u that I care, then I will... All I want right now is for u to be here with me... I miss u so much... How blue can i actually get? u could ask my heart...
I took out all the horrible things in my journal about u... For I am so sorry to hurt u like that... I kno that if it was done to me I would be extremely hurt... and if u dont ever forgive me, i understand... I guess our friendship just wasn't meant to be... I knew it had to end someday... But god dammit... y now? when i need u the most... u were always there to talk to me and comfort me and now thats gone... u made me soooo happy sometimes... and we had some amazing times together... Like in New York, We stuck together the whole trip, u were my buddy... On the bus rides we had fun too and we both learned more about each other for those rides... And remember that horrible time I had in Six Flags last year? And u were there the whole time, even tho we werent that gr8 of friends back then... I just can't go on like this... There is nothing I fake in our friendship... So I really don't know where u got that from... I just want u to know that I love u and I will never forget u and the fun times we had... U will always have a special place in my heart... No matter the circumstances...
Songs that remind me of you...
*Burn - Usher*
*To Face The Truth - Pet Shop Boys*
*Strong Enough - Cher*
*Whats Love Gotta Do With It - Tina Turner*
*This Love - Maroon 5*
*Nobody Knows It But Me - Tony Rich Project*
*The Sharp Hint Of New Tears - Dashboard Confessional*
*Complicated - Avril Lavigne*
*My Immortal - Evanessence*
*Paper Heart - All American Rejects*
*Cry Me A River - Justin Timberlake*
*Foolish Games - Jewel*
*Leave - JoJo*
*Greatest Fall Of All Time - Matchbox Romance*
*Save Yourself - Matchbox Romance*
*Walk On By - Dione Warwick*
*Rapid Hope Loss - Dashboard Confessional*
*Next Time - BBMak*
*Ghost of You and Me - BBMak*
*Back Here - BBMak*
*Kanye's Workout Plan - Kanye West*
*As I Lay Me Down To Sleep - Sophie B. Hawkins*
*I Can Tell - BBMak*
*Never Again - Justin Timberlake*
More to come...