i cant wait for you to fuck me up. wait a minute. wait a fuckin minute.

[dare_u_2_rock]

i definitely think that i jinxed mike saying that the ohio state buckeyes were the "ohio state nuts"... it's not my fault i didn't know what the hell their mascot was supposed to be! it's a nut. lol. but mike explained it better to me... not a NORMAL nut. lol. ohio state nuts. anyway- i feel bad bc they lost

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[haloless_angel2]

i'm sorry didi- but that is MESSED up. angry at him, then sad for him, then depressed over him, then happy with him??? please choose already. i really wish you'd take my advice, and stay away for a little while... but it looks like you wont do that, and you'll keep getting hurt- and when you get hurt enough times, then you will finally give some thought into my advice. I love you... but i hate seeing you like this, and i don't like seeing you depressed and not strong. The didi i know/knew- was strong and independant... probably still is in most ways.. but when it comes to this- you are vunerable, depressed, and so many other words... and i HATE it, because you could help it. in the back of my mind tho, i'm thinkin' you dont want to help it... you like when you two make up... or whatever it is... i think you are okay with it... you are a very confusing person dee.. and i'm here to stick with you til the end... i support your decisions... even though i might not believe in them- i support them, because you are you, and you have to make them, so i support you fully.... I dont know- i guess im having a hard time getting my point across in the right way- i know, i feel horrible for sounding like this evil bitch-- but if i dont do it... who will? i think friends are there to challenge you through all obstacles- not to help you make them easier, but to make them tougher, so you learn from them, so it makes you think.... or something like that... its hard to say everything that i'm trying to say right now... because i can't type it- it has to be said or shown. I love you dee, i always will- you are my best friend- you've been there through everything. and hopefully, i've been there in return. <3

[dare_u_2_rock]

that part that i posted today happened on saturday night, so i was just updating my journal about it. but i agree with you about the fact that i dont see myself as a strong and independent individual right now in this case. and i do agree that i should give it time. for this reason, i'll let him be the one to contact me. i still care for him and want him in my life, but after thinking about my situation and all the advice that i have gotten from you and my mom in the present as well as the past, i think that it would be best if i wait for him to come around. when he wants to see me, he knows what to do. i just hope that i'll be strong enough to keep my mitts off of him until he does.

and believe me, you don't sound like a bitch. i understand where you are coming from and everything that you are trying to say, even if you don't say it. remember- i've known you for eleven years now. (wow) i love you- thank you for always being there- you have been, and i am glad to hear that i have been able to return the favor. i miss you and we really need to hang out sometime- this time we need to stop saying it, and do it. :-) anyway, that's my decision. i'll call you after work tomorrow. and ps- this weekend im going to be in florida to visit my aunt, so that's off.

[haloless_angel2]

you should be more descriptive in your entries- -or something like that- so i would have known that was from sat!! haha... i'm glad you are gonna leave him alone- and let him come to you- and don't worry- they always do!!!

wow- 11 years!!! thats CRAZY!!!!!!!!! haha- tears just came to my eyes. 11 damn years didi.... thats awesome. god i love you so much babe, i really don't know what i would do without you sometimes.

yeah- we better do something soon! (and that is fine, i'd much rather you go visit your aunt this weekend.-- i'm so sorry about that- i'm here for you when you need me, for anything- not just your aunt... ANYTHING- you know the #)

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