best friend means.
this past week and a half or so has been a whirl wind of emotions.
soemtimes i try to accomplish to many things at one time.
and end up hurting people.
i hate letting people down,.
it rots away in my stomach.
i cant stand to let people down.
srsly. helping people is my passion.
and i know thats what i want to do in life.
and when i let someone down.
i feel like i shouldnt be counted on.
but i really do love helping people.
and no matter what I will always always always have a postive attitude.
i may not have the looks the body. or the personality. but i do know i do have the attitude. to fill a dark rooom.
i dont know how.
but sometimes.
i feel like i am a human aspiration calender.
i always think of something. to fill in the awkard spots.
to make things better.
i dont know why you changed so much.
you were so happy and go lucky and carefreee.
but now all you think about it attention and how to get it.
what happened to walter?..
and you dont realize how much it hurts me. to see you become good friends with him.
and say how you love each other
even as friends.
it still hurts
do you not expect me to get jealous
or are you so dim minded that you forget about my feelings.
well.
i never ever ever ever ever forgot about yours.
i was always there.
so please stop acting like you care.
other than that,
shantel marie denton
iloveyou so much,.
and you are so much stronger than you think.
i hate when you let people step all over you.
we are not door mats.
we do not desereve to be stepped on
yesterday the family values concert WAS AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!
i loved everything about it.
- watching people falll and trip all over the mud.
- watching a girl beat a boy up
- rocking out with random people
- headbanging and screaming to every song
- screaming at the top of my lungs to korn. and having people tell me i know how to rock out.
- clobs of dirt getting thrown at us. ha ha
- being on camera for five finger death punch. and putting my fists in the air
- watching all the drunk people fall on the mud and spill their beers.
idk. but i loved it.
and i had so much fun.
im terrified of rejection.
terrified.
im done with just being that girl.
that girl that is there when avaiblible.
you oonly talk to when you are alone.
or lonely.
yesterday was the worst of it all.
i cant even belive it.
ugh.
other than that.
i love life.
and everything god has in store for me.