fic - you've got mail, chapter two. jared/jensen
Title: You've got mail 2/?
Author: dare_to_dream06
Rating: still PG-13 but will be NC-17 overall.
Word Count: 971
Pairing: Jared/Jensen
Warnings: Oh god the angst. you've been warned.
Authors Notes: This chapter is written in Jensen's POV, it's a little short but I had to put it in there somewhere. Once again, comments are CRACK. Please feed my addiction. :)
Summary: Jared and Jensen have been best friends since the show started filming. But they've both been keeping secrets from each other. When Jensen can't take it anymore, he finally tells Jared his secret, over the internet. Jared doesn't know what to do, was it all just some stupid joke?
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Chapter two
He knew it was a bad idea, he knew it! But he couldn’t stop himself from sending Jared those emails. He’d been so happy and buzzed after Jared had left, that he thought it was the right thing to do. He’d been harbouring those feelings long enough and it was about time they were out in the open.
After Jared had left his apartment, he logged onto his IM and changed his name to Paddywacked, thinking that maybe when Jared saw that, it’d give him some sort of clue, even if Jensen backed out of his original plan. Maybe it’d make him curious or something. He didn’t really know the reasoning behind it, he was buzzed after all and well, people do stupid things when they drink.
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Early on this week Jensen had been engaged in a staring contest with the back of Jared’s head, while he thought of how nice it would feel to run his fingers through Jared’s hair. That was until Kim had stepped up next to him and started waving a hand in front of Jensen’s face. When Jensen blinked a few times and realized that he was caught in the act, he blushed furiously.
Kim had said “What’s the matter Jensen? Got your boxers in a twist for the J-man?” and laughed as he slapped Jensen on the back.
Of course Kim had just been kidding, but that made him think. How many more times had he been staring at Jared and someone else had noticed? Was he really that transparent when it came to the feelings he had for his co-star? Jensen was nothing if not witty and he surely could have played Kim’s little joke off and not even had to think about it. That is, if it were anyone else. But with Jared, he just... didn’t seem capable of hiding his feelings.
He decided then and there that he’d try to keep things under control from then on. That’s when things started to go downhill.
Jared seemed to come to his trailer more often then not, looking for Jensen to hang out or run lines with him. Jensen would obviously turn down some of the offers but not all of them, not wanting Jared to think he was trying to avoid him. After all they’re still best friends, but if he spent more time with Jared then usual he couldn’t promise himself that he’d be able to keep his feelings in check and he didn’t intend to let his feelings get the best of him.
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As the week progressed he became more and more frustrated after catching himself staring at Jared or zoning out while thinking about him. Once or twice Jared had caught Jensen himself staring at him and Jensen immediately blushed and ducked his head like a little virgin.
What the fuck was wrong with him?
So tonight was the night he had planned to just let things flow the way the usually did. After leaving set he came home and emailed Jared, stating nothing but the basics Nine o'clock. My place. Bring beer. not trusting himself to talk to Jared after the shoot. Of course Jared had showed up right on time, with Jensen sprawled out on the living room floor, trying to fish out the movie he picked out for tonight, from behind his entertainment center. The movie being one of Jared’s favorites, like always. Jensen didn’t mind. Anything Jared liked he normally liked too and if not, he’d just get used to liking it.
The night went awesome as planned, fun like usual. No weird tension in the air between them like it had been all week. Jensen was mostly sure Jared didn’t notice it, even though he certainly did. But not tonight. Everything was great.
It got late and when Jared yawned Jensen offered him the guest bedroom just like he always did, it was always open for Jared if he wanted it. Jensen wasn’t sure why he just didn’t call it ‘Jared’s Room’. That would probably just be weird though, so he didn’t. Jared thanked him and said he’d stay over if it wasn’t for his dogs being alone. Jensen was disappointed but didn’t let it show on his face as he watched Jared get his coat on and head out the door.
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Which brings him to the fact that he’s curled up on his bed in fetal position sulking. He had told Jared how he felt and Jared had just shut down. He didn’t even say anything in return, told him they’d talk about it tomorrow in person. How could he let this happen? Why did he have to go and ruin one of his best friendships he’s ever had. He was certain Jared was going to try and avoid him now, or try to let him down easy and Jensen wasn’t sure if he could handle that.
He rolled over and to glance at the clock on the bedside table. Instead of seeing the time he saw the picture of him and Jared they took at one of Mikey’s parties a few weekends ago. Jared had the biggest shit eating grin on his face, arms wrapped around Jensen like a vice, eyes crinkled at the sides and Jensen stood with his tongue poking out, head tipped towards Jared. As soon as Tommy had developed it, he’d given it to Jensen and Jensen had framed it, sticking it on the table by his bed making sure that was the last thing he’d see right before he drifted off to sleep.
Now, it only served to taunt Jensen, showing him what he couldn’t have. He reached his arm out and flipped the picture face down, not wanting to see how happy he could be and being reminded of all the reasons he isn’t.
NEXT PART
Author: dare_to_dream06
Rating: still PG-13 but will be NC-17 overall.
Word Count: 971
Pairing: Jared/Jensen
Warnings: Oh god the angst. you've been warned.
Authors Notes: This chapter is written in Jensen's POV, it's a little short but I had to put it in there somewhere. Once again, comments are CRACK. Please feed my addiction. :)
Summary: Jared and Jensen have been best friends since the show started filming. But they've both been keeping secrets from each other. When Jensen can't take it anymore, he finally tells Jared his secret, over the internet. Jared doesn't know what to do, was it all just some stupid joke?
1 |
Chapter two
He knew it was a bad idea, he knew it! But he couldn’t stop himself from sending Jared those emails. He’d been so happy and buzzed after Jared had left, that he thought it was the right thing to do. He’d been harbouring those feelings long enough and it was about time they were out in the open.
After Jared had left his apartment, he logged onto his IM and changed his name to Paddywacked, thinking that maybe when Jared saw that, it’d give him some sort of clue, even if Jensen backed out of his original plan. Maybe it’d make him curious or something. He didn’t really know the reasoning behind it, he was buzzed after all and well, people do stupid things when they drink.
---
Early on this week Jensen had been engaged in a staring contest with the back of Jared’s head, while he thought of how nice it would feel to run his fingers through Jared’s hair. That was until Kim had stepped up next to him and started waving a hand in front of Jensen’s face. When Jensen blinked a few times and realized that he was caught in the act, he blushed furiously.
Kim had said “What’s the matter Jensen? Got your boxers in a twist for the J-man?” and laughed as he slapped Jensen on the back.
Of course Kim had just been kidding, but that made him think. How many more times had he been staring at Jared and someone else had noticed? Was he really that transparent when it came to the feelings he had for his co-star? Jensen was nothing if not witty and he surely could have played Kim’s little joke off and not even had to think about it. That is, if it were anyone else. But with Jared, he just... didn’t seem capable of hiding his feelings.
He decided then and there that he’d try to keep things under control from then on. That’s when things started to go downhill.
Jared seemed to come to his trailer more often then not, looking for Jensen to hang out or run lines with him. Jensen would obviously turn down some of the offers but not all of them, not wanting Jared to think he was trying to avoid him. After all they’re still best friends, but if he spent more time with Jared then usual he couldn’t promise himself that he’d be able to keep his feelings in check and he didn’t intend to let his feelings get the best of him.
---
As the week progressed he became more and more frustrated after catching himself staring at Jared or zoning out while thinking about him. Once or twice Jared had caught Jensen himself staring at him and Jensen immediately blushed and ducked his head like a little virgin.
What the fuck was wrong with him?
So tonight was the night he had planned to just let things flow the way the usually did. After leaving set he came home and emailed Jared, stating nothing but the basics Nine o'clock. My place. Bring beer. not trusting himself to talk to Jared after the shoot. Of course Jared had showed up right on time, with Jensen sprawled out on the living room floor, trying to fish out the movie he picked out for tonight, from behind his entertainment center. The movie being one of Jared’s favorites, like always. Jensen didn’t mind. Anything Jared liked he normally liked too and if not, he’d just get used to liking it.
The night went awesome as planned, fun like usual. No weird tension in the air between them like it had been all week. Jensen was mostly sure Jared didn’t notice it, even though he certainly did. But not tonight. Everything was great.
It got late and when Jared yawned Jensen offered him the guest bedroom just like he always did, it was always open for Jared if he wanted it. Jensen wasn’t sure why he just didn’t call it ‘Jared’s Room’. That would probably just be weird though, so he didn’t. Jared thanked him and said he’d stay over if it wasn’t for his dogs being alone. Jensen was disappointed but didn’t let it show on his face as he watched Jared get his coat on and head out the door.
---
Which brings him to the fact that he’s curled up on his bed in fetal position sulking. He had told Jared how he felt and Jared had just shut down. He didn’t even say anything in return, told him they’d talk about it tomorrow in person. How could he let this happen? Why did he have to go and ruin one of his best friendships he’s ever had. He was certain Jared was going to try and avoid him now, or try to let him down easy and Jensen wasn’t sure if he could handle that.
He rolled over and to glance at the clock on the bedside table. Instead of seeing the time he saw the picture of him and Jared they took at one of Mikey’s parties a few weekends ago. Jared had the biggest shit eating grin on his face, arms wrapped around Jensen like a vice, eyes crinkled at the sides and Jensen stood with his tongue poking out, head tipped towards Jared. As soon as Tommy had developed it, he’d given it to Jensen and Jensen had framed it, sticking it on the table by his bed making sure that was the last thing he’d see right before he drifted off to sleep.
Now, it only served to taunt Jensen, showing him what he couldn’t have. He reached his arm out and flipped the picture face down, not wanting to see how happy he could be and being reminded of all the reasons he isn’t.
NEXT PART