Rant.
today was such a bad day. i don't know why. i just feel so.. depressed. =_= but it'll all pass over. i hope. do you get the feeling how you've really got no friends? that you're really all alone even if you're surrounded by bunches of other people? i don't know why i feel this way. i mean, i laugh, i have friends. maybe i'm still homesick for my friends in ottawa. i don't know.
compared to grade 8, grade 9 is a whole different world. maybe i'm just comparing too much but i miss grade 8 so much. i miss all my friends, now i hardly even speak to ANY of them. am i just a bad friend? maybe i should call more? i don't know. i just feel forgotten. i feel like the girl who was only in their lives for two years and that's it.
here, im just another person. another face in the crowd. i miss being a best friend. i miss talking on the phone every night and getting my parents pissed at me for hogging the phone. i miss laughing my ass off and juicy gossip girly nights. i miss middle school. hell, i even miss my old math teacher. i miss all of my friends and everybody in my old school, even the ones who i hate. i can't help thinking if everything would be different if i never moved to saskatoon. i can't help thinking if my life would be better. i can't help thinking about my best friends. i just can't and it's confusing me. i just miss being a best friend, i guess.
compared to grade 8, grade 9 is a whole different world. maybe i'm just comparing too much but i miss grade 8 so much. i miss all my friends, now i hardly even speak to ANY of them. am i just a bad friend? maybe i should call more? i don't know. i just feel forgotten. i feel like the girl who was only in their lives for two years and that's it.
here, im just another person. another face in the crowd. i miss being a best friend. i miss talking on the phone every night and getting my parents pissed at me for hogging the phone. i miss laughing my ass off and juicy gossip girly nights. i miss middle school. hell, i even miss my old math teacher. i miss all of my friends and everybody in my old school, even the ones who i hate. i can't help thinking if everything would be different if i never moved to saskatoon. i can't help thinking if my life would be better. i can't help thinking about my best friends. i just can't and it's confusing me. i just miss being a best friend, i guess.