I don't know. I'm afraid. I wish...I feel like I've been here before.

[dapplsprez]

I don't know what to do.
I don't know what to say.
I don't know what to think and I don't know what I want.
I don't know anything.
I don't know who to talk to.
I don't know who to listen to.
I don't know what I have and I don't know what I need.
I don't know what I want.
I don't know what is going on.
I don't know what will happen and I don't know if I'm ready for any of it.
I don't know anything.

I'm afraid of what's going on.
I'm afraid of how I handle things.
I'm afraid I can't handle it and I afraid of how I'll react.
I'm afraid of everything.
I'm afraid that no matter how hard I try, nothing will work out right.
I'm afraid that I'm already doomed and I don't even know it.
I'm afraid of everything.

I wish I had answers, or at least that I knew where to find them.
I wish I could get things right the first time...or the second or the third.
I wish this life wasn't so crazy.
I wish I was as level-headed as I pretend to be.
I wish I could just make everyone happy.
I wish I make myself happy, at least for a little while.
I wish I didn't hide behind walls of fear.
I wish I never felt let down, or misguided or betrayed.
I wish I knew everything or nothing at all.
I wish this life wasn't so crazy.

I feel like I've been here before.
I wish I remembered how to handle this.
I don't know, I'm afraid, and all I can do now is wish.
I feel like I've been here before.
My mind is silent like its never been before...or maybe it has and I just can't recall it.