Thank you everyone
It's the summer solstice tomorrow.
It's... a time when the wheel turns, back towards Winter. The days shorten and the nights get longer. It's about celebrating the power of the sun, the paradox of this festival. Litha itself means wheel.
Tonight will be the shortest night of the year, and one year- maybe next year- I'm taking my friend to stonehenge to see the sunset, and keep vigil through the night to the rising of the sun over stonehenge.
But. Yeah. Anyway. I guess this is... kind of... reflection on how far I've gone. This time last year, I was getting ready to join Wicca, join something that called and appealed to me as much as it does now. I've grown a lot. In my own way. I've lost the attitude I once had about people and love. I've learnt where my heart lies, and what I want to do.
I think the biggest thing is that I've also learnt who I really am. As much as my desire and drive to be a vet is... there... It's not got the same level of importance as it once did. I think my main focus has shifted to my happiness rather than my achievement. I think I think I think. I know. After losing out, not being able to get a place for vet med, I've shifted down a gear. I don't need to stress myself out anymore, I have people I know I can truly trust and I've been through enough to know that, with a little support, I can get through pretty much anything.
It isn't about needing someone to prop me up, because I'm not that weak and in most cases, if you tell me to do one thing, I'll still do the opposite. It's about having someone that I can look to, to know that there's someone behind me, ready to catch me if I misbalance, put me back on my feet and help me carry on. It's about knowing that there's someone there who will just be there. Mostly unconditionally.
This time last year I felt alone. I felt like there would be no one to help me when I was busy helping someone else. I felt like I was being pulled down by a current I couldn't escape. And. The meme. The meme gave me hope and a release. I could rely on the people there. I've found some of my best friends and my favourite people ever there. I've found the people who make me wonder how different life could be if... I've found people who have inspired me to carry on, no matter what. I can get there in any unconventional way I find.
So thank you, to you all.
Thank you.
<3
It's... a time when the wheel turns, back towards Winter. The days shorten and the nights get longer. It's about celebrating the power of the sun, the paradox of this festival. Litha itself means wheel.
Tonight will be the shortest night of the year, and one year- maybe next year- I'm taking my friend to stonehenge to see the sunset, and keep vigil through the night to the rising of the sun over stonehenge.
But. Yeah. Anyway. I guess this is... kind of... reflection on how far I've gone. This time last year, I was getting ready to join Wicca, join something that called and appealed to me as much as it does now. I've grown a lot. In my own way. I've lost the attitude I once had about people and love. I've learnt where my heart lies, and what I want to do.
I think the biggest thing is that I've also learnt who I really am. As much as my desire and drive to be a vet is... there... It's not got the same level of importance as it once did. I think my main focus has shifted to my happiness rather than my achievement. I think I think I think. I know. After losing out, not being able to get a place for vet med, I've shifted down a gear. I don't need to stress myself out anymore, I have people I know I can truly trust and I've been through enough to know that, with a little support, I can get through pretty much anything.
It isn't about needing someone to prop me up, because I'm not that weak and in most cases, if you tell me to do one thing, I'll still do the opposite. It's about having someone that I can look to, to know that there's someone behind me, ready to catch me if I misbalance, put me back on my feet and help me carry on. It's about knowing that there's someone there who will just be there. Mostly unconditionally.
This time last year I felt alone. I felt like there would be no one to help me when I was busy helping someone else. I felt like I was being pulled down by a current I couldn't escape. And. The meme. The meme gave me hope and a release. I could rely on the people there. I've found some of my best friends and my favourite people ever there. I've found the people who make me wonder how different life could be if... I've found people who have inspired me to carry on, no matter what. I can get there in any unconventional way I find.
So thank you, to you all.
Thank you.
<3