Before I go to bed.....
Its christmas now, as of 7 minutes ago, or when I started posting this. This has been a unique christmas for me. Let me kind of share some bits.
This winter break started out kind of grim. I found out earlier that for a good chunk of my break, Meagan would be gone. I went up to see her for a week, knowing she would only be home for like, 3 days, before going on a cruise for a week, then going to indiana for another 4 days, meaning, as usual, I would be spending my holidays mostly alone.
As luck would have it, I managed to get a cold the night Meagan left, so I've been sick up until about today, great fun. Before she left, my mom surprised us by giving us Trans-Siberian Orchestra tickets. It was an amazing show, from great seats. It was an absolute blast. That was Saturday. Its weird, saturday night, it was so hard to say good bye. I mean, I knew she would be back, and it would be sooner than usual, but somehow, this was so much harder. I can't imagine how January 9th is going to feel.....
But anyway, between a combination of free flights, and an early christmas gift, I was able to get a flight to Indiana so I could spend the last part of christmas with her, so its going to be good. As the year comes to a close, I realize how much has changed. Especially me, I'm looking at life in such a different way now. I'm looking more long term, doing things, and planning things for my future, making decisions now that are directing how I will live my life and what all will be going on.... frankly its a little scary. Overall though it kind of isn't. I dunno.
Overall this holiday season has been a little melancholy, we didn't really decorate until like 6 days before christmas, and even then, barely. We just finished wrapping presents. I talked to my mom about it, and she told me its just growing up, and I buy that, but I still kind of get those moments, where I feel like a little kid again. We watched It's a Wonderful Life tonight, just like old times. It was kinda nice. Curled up by the fire, Lucy curled up next to me, the smell of cooking cinnamon rolls.... its all so fun. I did serious christmas shopping for my family this year, more so than ever before, as in, I used my money, 100% my money, to do the shopping, and it feels kinda good. I was a little disappointed in church this year, but not totally, they switched back to using real candles again, and when they turn the lights out, and all the candles are lit, it still gives me chills, it always will I hope. I feel better now, and am definately looking forward to tomorrow morning because I get the best gift of all, I get to go see my baby on christmas, and that, I think, is the best thing about christmas, is spending it with those you love.
So with this long kinda rambling entry, I hope everyone who still reads this has a merry christmas. I hope you all get to spend it with those you love, and may god bless all of you in this season. Merry Christmas everyone
This winter break started out kind of grim. I found out earlier that for a good chunk of my break, Meagan would be gone. I went up to see her for a week, knowing she would only be home for like, 3 days, before going on a cruise for a week, then going to indiana for another 4 days, meaning, as usual, I would be spending my holidays mostly alone.
As luck would have it, I managed to get a cold the night Meagan left, so I've been sick up until about today, great fun. Before she left, my mom surprised us by giving us Trans-Siberian Orchestra tickets. It was an amazing show, from great seats. It was an absolute blast. That was Saturday. Its weird, saturday night, it was so hard to say good bye. I mean, I knew she would be back, and it would be sooner than usual, but somehow, this was so much harder. I can't imagine how January 9th is going to feel.....
But anyway, between a combination of free flights, and an early christmas gift, I was able to get a flight to Indiana so I could spend the last part of christmas with her, so its going to be good. As the year comes to a close, I realize how much has changed. Especially me, I'm looking at life in such a different way now. I'm looking more long term, doing things, and planning things for my future, making decisions now that are directing how I will live my life and what all will be going on.... frankly its a little scary. Overall though it kind of isn't. I dunno.
Overall this holiday season has been a little melancholy, we didn't really decorate until like 6 days before christmas, and even then, barely. We just finished wrapping presents. I talked to my mom about it, and she told me its just growing up, and I buy that, but I still kind of get those moments, where I feel like a little kid again. We watched It's a Wonderful Life tonight, just like old times. It was kinda nice. Curled up by the fire, Lucy curled up next to me, the smell of cooking cinnamon rolls.... its all so fun. I did serious christmas shopping for my family this year, more so than ever before, as in, I used my money, 100% my money, to do the shopping, and it feels kinda good. I was a little disappointed in church this year, but not totally, they switched back to using real candles again, and when they turn the lights out, and all the candles are lit, it still gives me chills, it always will I hope. I feel better now, and am definately looking forward to tomorrow morning because I get the best gift of all, I get to go see my baby on christmas, and that, I think, is the best thing about christmas, is spending it with those you love.
So with this long kinda rambling entry, I hope everyone who still reads this has a merry christmas. I hope you all get to spend it with those you love, and may god bless all of you in this season. Merry Christmas everyone