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Ya. This is great.
So Thursday thru tuesday have been absolutely amazing. I got to spend all day thursday, friday, saturday, some of sunday, monday, and tuesday with Meagan, which has been nothing less than incredible. I think spending time with her may be my favorite thing in the world, and she makes me immensely happy. So now that I'm done with that crap, lets start talking about today shall we?
Today has been long, and I'm exhausted. I didn't want to go to class this morning... or this afternoon... or tonight, or really, ever to be completely honest. I'm just ready to go to sleep, but no, I was a responsible student and left my damn lab report, which I had all of spring break and this week to do by the way, until now, and now I have less than 0 motivation to do anything about it. I know i need to do better on these lab reports or I'm going to end up failing the lab if I keep half assing them. The good news is there are only 4 more, the bad news is that in a class that should be an easy A, I'm gonna probably pull a B or C+... which is not really what I want, but at the moment, I couldn't care less.
I have a test on Friday, and one on Monday, and I think one on Wednesday, and possibly one on thursday... and maybe one a week from Tuesday... but somehow I don't really care about them either. I'm feeling even more and more like I did this time last year... I wonder if theres any reason that March is so hard on me... Is it my allergies maybe? I dunno, maybe subconsciously I associate March with other not so happy events of my life... I mean, I never really think about bad things that have happened in the past, but could it be that I subconsciously have problems now? I hope its allergies... I kinda wanna just walk somewhere... anywhere, but theres nowhere to go, and its almost 1... and I have wonderful things to do like this damn lab report, which I'm not doing right now by the way, on a side note. I think I have probably typed more in this box right now that I have in my lab report. This really is counterproductive....
So my family is in town, apparently for my brother's birthday I guess, plus its spring break for the rest of Texas, meaning all my friends are doing fun stuff while I suffer at school. Last week was possibly one of the borderline WORST spring breaks I EVER had. With the exclusion of Thursday and Friday. No offense to those who were around me over spring break, but seriously... I don't feel like I got a break, I'm coming back feeling worse and more drained than before.
So back to my family being in town. At the moment its just my grandparents and my younger cousin, Colton. Yesterday Meagan came over for dinner, and she got to see the full brunt of Colton annoyingness... I realize how sorry I feel for Josh, being his brother, and Aaron and Lance for being the ones he hangs off of when I'm not around... and hopefully if I was ever that terribly annoying, I think I owe them a serious apology, and possibly a chiropractor. I think my right side is in more pain at the moment than it EVER has been. I'm actually really glad Meagan was there, she kinda helped me hold onto my sanity, and not completely loose myself on him. I guess I'm still a bit peeved about it right now, which would possibly explain some of my mood right now. Again, all my emotioms just kinda pile up, and then they all just kinda get to burst out in the form of anger, which is fun, and I'm sure very healthy.
So lets see what else, umm... Its funny how much I neglected this thing when I got someone that I tell everything to now. Its funny, its almost like this has virtually no purpose unless she's not around, in which case you get things like this, which is why I started it in the first place. Almost ironic that she's the one who complains most about me not updating, but she's probably 90% of the reason I don't update anymore... And on that note Meagan is in Jamaca until Saturday, so that means no phone or anything of that variety... bleh. It sucks.
So I've totally wasted 10 minutes on this. You know, if I would have typed this much in my lab report now, I would totally be done. Isn't that funny?
I don't really know exactly whats wrong with me at the moment, I just don't feel right. Maybe its just tired, but I sleep alot... Maybe its back to me sleeping but not, which could have to do with actual physical problems, and that mixed with some stress, and probably some allergies makes for a blast.... I really just feel like ick. I don't want to get up for class tomorrow.. but I think theres a chance we have a quiz, over who gives a crap. I'm sure its more pointless repeated crap about collisions.. I know we're like 3 chapters behind the other classes, possibly because the damn professor doesn't speak enough english to explain what he's talking about... Maybe he should just be locked in a research lab, I'm sure he's a brilliant man, but he needs a translator. Honestly. I feel like his class is such a waste of my time. His test is going to be mostly repeat material anyway, so I don't really care too much about it *shrug*
I feel like I should be doing something else, not even homework... Like the dishes maybe... maybe that will get my homework done faster. I also have some CS homework due Friday night at 11:00pm, and thats the last thing I really want to deal with tomorrow too, but I guess I'll suck it up and do it sometime... between that party I want to go to, and lunch, and class... ya... Its only one more problem, I just feel like I have better things to do. And oh ya, there's that History test that I'm somehow supposed to study for, which now I can't use my laptop in, which is annoying, because I can type much better than I can write, because some jackasses don't know how to take notes WITHOUT playing solitaire. Why do some people even bother coming to class? Are they just there to screw around and get everyone in trouble? It seems like it, but not I have like, all the lectures except 1 typed, which I feel like I should type those notes just for consistancy.
I may possibly just be trying to get this to go as long as possible. I just want to pass out, thats all I really want. I want to lay down in bed, and sleep, and just keep sleeping, but I know I have like, another hour or so worth of work ahead of me, and I don't want to do it. I'm not even sure I want to have lunch with my family tomorrow. I know it may just drive me more nuts since Colton will be there, and he'll be annoying as ever all over me. I feel kinda bad talking about him like that, but seriously, he kinda drives me nuts. Nice guy, wild immagination though, making up exaggerated stories about all kidns of things that didn't really happen in an attempt to impress us, which I wish he wouldn't, it just makes him sound like an idiot. Next week is gonna suck, I'm tired just looking at it. I'm not ready for it. I'm ready for school to be done, which thankfully is only like 5 or so more weeks, like maybe 4 more weeks of classes and then exams. Thank god. And maybe in the next few weeks waterview will get off their asses and give us the damn paperwork for next year. Ya, that'd be nice, preferably with more than 2 days to work everything out. mmm, fantastic plan.
So I'm going to get the mail, then I'm going to work on my lab report, then I'm going to bed, because tomorrow is going to suck :)! Yay for suck!
By the way, if you read all this, you get like, 3 points, and maybe a cookie...
So Thursday thru tuesday have been absolutely amazing. I got to spend all day thursday, friday, saturday, some of sunday, monday, and tuesday with Meagan, which has been nothing less than incredible. I think spending time with her may be my favorite thing in the world, and she makes me immensely happy. So now that I'm done with that crap, lets start talking about today shall we?
Today has been long, and I'm exhausted. I didn't want to go to class this morning... or this afternoon... or tonight, or really, ever to be completely honest. I'm just ready to go to sleep, but no, I was a responsible student and left my damn lab report, which I had all of spring break and this week to do by the way, until now, and now I have less than 0 motivation to do anything about it. I know i need to do better on these lab reports or I'm going to end up failing the lab if I keep half assing them. The good news is there are only 4 more, the bad news is that in a class that should be an easy A, I'm gonna probably pull a B or C+... which is not really what I want, but at the moment, I couldn't care less.
I have a test on Friday, and one on Monday, and I think one on Wednesday, and possibly one on thursday... and maybe one a week from Tuesday... but somehow I don't really care about them either. I'm feeling even more and more like I did this time last year... I wonder if theres any reason that March is so hard on me... Is it my allergies maybe? I dunno, maybe subconsciously I associate March with other not so happy events of my life... I mean, I never really think about bad things that have happened in the past, but could it be that I subconsciously have problems now? I hope its allergies... I kinda wanna just walk somewhere... anywhere, but theres nowhere to go, and its almost 1... and I have wonderful things to do like this damn lab report, which I'm not doing right now by the way, on a side note. I think I have probably typed more in this box right now that I have in my lab report. This really is counterproductive....
So my family is in town, apparently for my brother's birthday I guess, plus its spring break for the rest of Texas, meaning all my friends are doing fun stuff while I suffer at school. Last week was possibly one of the borderline WORST spring breaks I EVER had. With the exclusion of Thursday and Friday. No offense to those who were around me over spring break, but seriously... I don't feel like I got a break, I'm coming back feeling worse and more drained than before.
So back to my family being in town. At the moment its just my grandparents and my younger cousin, Colton. Yesterday Meagan came over for dinner, and she got to see the full brunt of Colton annoyingness... I realize how sorry I feel for Josh, being his brother, and Aaron and Lance for being the ones he hangs off of when I'm not around... and hopefully if I was ever that terribly annoying, I think I owe them a serious apology, and possibly a chiropractor. I think my right side is in more pain at the moment than it EVER has been. I'm actually really glad Meagan was there, she kinda helped me hold onto my sanity, and not completely loose myself on him. I guess I'm still a bit peeved about it right now, which would possibly explain some of my mood right now. Again, all my emotioms just kinda pile up, and then they all just kinda get to burst out in the form of anger, which is fun, and I'm sure very healthy.
So lets see what else, umm... Its funny how much I neglected this thing when I got someone that I tell everything to now. Its funny, its almost like this has virtually no purpose unless she's not around, in which case you get things like this, which is why I started it in the first place. Almost ironic that she's the one who complains most about me not updating, but she's probably 90% of the reason I don't update anymore... And on that note Meagan is in Jamaca until Saturday, so that means no phone or anything of that variety... bleh. It sucks.
So I've totally wasted 10 minutes on this. You know, if I would have typed this much in my lab report now, I would totally be done. Isn't that funny?
I don't really know exactly whats wrong with me at the moment, I just don't feel right. Maybe its just tired, but I sleep alot... Maybe its back to me sleeping but not, which could have to do with actual physical problems, and that mixed with some stress, and probably some allergies makes for a blast.... I really just feel like ick. I don't want to get up for class tomorrow.. but I think theres a chance we have a quiz, over who gives a crap. I'm sure its more pointless repeated crap about collisions.. I know we're like 3 chapters behind the other classes, possibly because the damn professor doesn't speak enough english to explain what he's talking about... Maybe he should just be locked in a research lab, I'm sure he's a brilliant man, but he needs a translator. Honestly. I feel like his class is such a waste of my time. His test is going to be mostly repeat material anyway, so I don't really care too much about it *shrug*
I feel like I should be doing something else, not even homework... Like the dishes maybe... maybe that will get my homework done faster. I also have some CS homework due Friday night at 11:00pm, and thats the last thing I really want to deal with tomorrow too, but I guess I'll suck it up and do it sometime... between that party I want to go to, and lunch, and class... ya... Its only one more problem, I just feel like I have better things to do. And oh ya, there's that History test that I'm somehow supposed to study for, which now I can't use my laptop in, which is annoying, because I can type much better than I can write, because some jackasses don't know how to take notes WITHOUT playing solitaire. Why do some people even bother coming to class? Are they just there to screw around and get everyone in trouble? It seems like it, but not I have like, all the lectures except 1 typed, which I feel like I should type those notes just for consistancy.
I may possibly just be trying to get this to go as long as possible. I just want to pass out, thats all I really want. I want to lay down in bed, and sleep, and just keep sleeping, but I know I have like, another hour or so worth of work ahead of me, and I don't want to do it. I'm not even sure I want to have lunch with my family tomorrow. I know it may just drive me more nuts since Colton will be there, and he'll be annoying as ever all over me. I feel kinda bad talking about him like that, but seriously, he kinda drives me nuts. Nice guy, wild immagination though, making up exaggerated stories about all kidns of things that didn't really happen in an attempt to impress us, which I wish he wouldn't, it just makes him sound like an idiot. Next week is gonna suck, I'm tired just looking at it. I'm not ready for it. I'm ready for school to be done, which thankfully is only like 5 or so more weeks, like maybe 4 more weeks of classes and then exams. Thank god. And maybe in the next few weeks waterview will get off their asses and give us the damn paperwork for next year. Ya, that'd be nice, preferably with more than 2 days to work everything out. mmm, fantastic plan.
So I'm going to get the mail, then I'm going to work on my lab report, then I'm going to bed, because tomorrow is going to suck :)! Yay for suck!
By the way, if you read all this, you get like, 3 points, and maybe a cookie...