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[daphieduck]

well i guess every so often i do this you know once a year. Well last night i went out with a couple friends from work and i had a blast, we had a conversation about religion and sociological views of famlies. i know that doesn't sound like a blast but i havn't shared my opinion like that in a long time. I also had to give landon a ride home and when we got to his apartment he gave me a ride. his was way better than mine. anyway i have been extremely confused on my feelings for him lately, and tonight i was watching this movie that made me realize that i honestly do love him, and i couldn't imagine my life without him. I was just reading through my past journals and read how much i loved cody, and i do still care about cody, but i never felt how i feel with landon as i did when i was with cody, ever!! I know that sounds confusing but i am so happy and even nervous around landon, the makes me excited. It's like when i haven't seen starla for a while than we hang out and for the first five minutes i am nervous, well everytime i see him i get butterflies in my stomach. and for us to have known eachother for so long that is a wonderful accomplishment. I know the only one who is going to read this is probably starla, but i want her unbiased advice. forget everything in the past okay, i am trying to live for the future, do you think he loves me and i love him? remember unbiased!!! gotta go i am supposed to be doing my math homework.

i love you starla!!