thoughts
Havent updated in a while. I don't have a very interesting life right now. Mostly school and practice. I got a gig singing for the tourism and hospitality department's fund raising dinner. It's a week from saturday, I'm really excited!!! I'm not getting paid but I do get to sing for like 200 people so that's payment in it's self. I'm looking forward to only having to get through 14 credits before I graduate from mt hood, all freakin ready!!! Next year I'll only have to take a few classes and then I can work and save. I plan on going to europe with colin a year from this summer so it will be good that I will have lot's of time to work. I'll also have to go to oklahoma, Texas, and probably Indianna and NY for school auditions next year too. I'm slowly resigning myself to that fact that once I'm on my way I won't really be able to live in Portland anymore. There really isnt a school or an opera house worth singing in here. There's a school in Santa Barbara thats pretty good and the San Fransisco Opera House is good as well so maybe I could still be on the west coast. No matter what though I want to try and make it in europe. I'm excited to persue my vocal capability to it's fullest extent and persue the truth of human emotion that opera can express but I'm really apprehensive about having to be so solitary and independant. I've always had such a close relationship with my parents and a stong nucleus of friends that I know it will be a supreme challenge for me. But I hope that I can keep building the friendships I have long distance and become a more independant and self assured woman. Singing and the people I love are the most important things to me so I hope I can find a way to have them both without sacrificing one for the other. It will work out, it always does. I feel confident I'm on this path for a reason, that I was made to sing so it will have to work.