Kill Me Now
Well, I'm in the home stretch of one nasty "finals" nightmare. As of today, I've got 4 down and 1 more to go --- Friday. What a way to end the week, huh? Luckily (or not so luckily) though, the last final is Constitutional Law and right now I am SOOOOO thanking the UAB fairy godmother for offering that class my senior year... and thanking God for sending 2 JD-holding professors to have taught it !! I may not have everything memorized just yet, but thank the lord I at least understand the concepts!
So.. the first week of finals wasn't so bad. Energy levels were good... and I only had 2 that week... Tuesday and Friday - so a nice study space in between. This week has been nothing short of a twisted joke from hell... 3 finals -- Monday, Wednesday, Friday....and none of them cakewalks by any means. Exhaustion hit me hard after Monday's final and I had the hardest time dragging my butt outta bed at 6:30am yesterday... and an even harder time getting up at 7:30 this morning.
At this point in the game I honest to god feel like a freakin zombied-out robot just functioning at the most basis level through life. My brain is working only to the extent of school and school-related events, but as for processing anything outside of school (as in personal or AL matters) ... well, that just ain't happening right now. I thought I've felt numbness inside before, but nothing like this -- I don't really feel "numb" per say, but dead inside -- completely and utterly dead. Just gotta keep my eye on the light at the end of this hell-world tunnel and keep living for 5pm Friday when the semester is officially done. Then comes the super anxious part of waiting for grades... which can be posted anytime between the actual final and 4 weeks from this friday. I just might be halfway through the summer term before I get spring grades.... not something I'm looking foward to should a worst-case scenario arise. I pray pray pray pray to God that it doesn't though and that all this suppressed worry is for nothing ;-)
Well, that's life as I know it right now. Final day, study day, final day, study day, etc. Sounds like a butt-ton of fun, eh? Right now I'm actually breaking my mold and staying up past 10pm. Usually 11pm is a late night in my terms, but I just couldn't study at home so I came back to the law center to hang with stephen and whoever else would be studying Con. Law tonight. So far, it's just been me since someone decided to turn into sleeping beauty about 3 hours ago...but never fear, Karl is here so I'm gonna get back to studying now since it will actually be fun -- cause he's just cool like that ;-) Oh wait, Stephen's awake now... let the late-night study fun begin !
So.. the first week of finals wasn't so bad. Energy levels were good... and I only had 2 that week... Tuesday and Friday - so a nice study space in between. This week has been nothing short of a twisted joke from hell... 3 finals -- Monday, Wednesday, Friday....and none of them cakewalks by any means. Exhaustion hit me hard after Monday's final and I had the hardest time dragging my butt outta bed at 6:30am yesterday... and an even harder time getting up at 7:30 this morning.
At this point in the game I honest to god feel like a freakin zombied-out robot just functioning at the most basis level through life. My brain is working only to the extent of school and school-related events, but as for processing anything outside of school (as in personal or AL matters) ... well, that just ain't happening right now. I thought I've felt numbness inside before, but nothing like this -- I don't really feel "numb" per say, but dead inside -- completely and utterly dead. Just gotta keep my eye on the light at the end of this hell-world tunnel and keep living for 5pm Friday when the semester is officially done. Then comes the super anxious part of waiting for grades... which can be posted anytime between the actual final and 4 weeks from this friday. I just might be halfway through the summer term before I get spring grades.... not something I'm looking foward to should a worst-case scenario arise. I pray pray pray pray to God that it doesn't though and that all this suppressed worry is for nothing ;-)
Well, that's life as I know it right now. Final day, study day, final day, study day, etc. Sounds like a butt-ton of fun, eh? Right now I'm actually breaking my mold and staying up past 10pm. Usually 11pm is a late night in my terms, but I just couldn't study at home so I came back to the law center to hang with stephen and whoever else would be studying Con. Law tonight. So far, it's just been me since someone decided to turn into sleeping beauty about 3 hours ago...but never fear, Karl is here so I'm gonna get back to studying now since it will actually be fun -- cause he's just cool like that ;-) Oh wait, Stephen's awake now... let the late-night study fun begin !