you just have to
sometimes in life, there comes a time when you have to put aside what makes you happy, to please another. being able to do this is true love. sometimes people do things you don't necessarily agree with, but yet again you put your feelings aside to please another. unfortunately, life works that way. you are constantly miserable and pleasing another. most of the time it's having to make yourself miserable, but other times, it's forgetting what bothers you and trying to make it better. sometimes these things go unnoticed. although it goes unnoticed, doesn't really mean that some don't notice it. to the people it matters to, they can tell, but to those who only care about themselves, this could most definitely slap them in the face. i've been able to put my individual problems aside for a year now. all this to please the one person i truly and deeply love. sometimes i'm affected by my problems, but i put up a shield so as not to make it obvious. i don't like the look of sadness on her face. it's amazing how things change in seconds. things that take years to conquer, are over before we embrace the fact that it's real. sometimes i feel miserable, but other times i try to make everything work perfectly. it's hard when people on focus on the mistakes you make or will make, rather than how much you've accomplish. anger blinds us all. it blocks our view of reality and leaves us with the disgusting look of all the bad in people. i look at myself sometimes and question myself. do i really see the bad in people when anger takes over? do i make others miserable? truth is, i refuse to see the bad in peopler, EVER. i like remembering everyone for all the good things they did. strange concept, but it works for me. as far as do i make others miserable, well i think i don't. i rather please another than please myself. others are more important than myself. strange concept, but i hate the look of sadness in her eyes. she's all i need, all i have, and all i ever wanted. she stands before me, and asks me to try, and what do i do? you've figured it out. I'M TRYING!!!!