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"and i'm not saying that i'm any better than you, sometimes i have motives that are just so stupid and i play the fool. but man you're killing me, the charade has got to end. so stop acting like you know everything because you're missing the point, you were supposed to be my friend"
Things have been rocky this week. I've been in somewhat of a shocked state, I suppose. A loss for words with some people.. and with others, no words needed to say at all. After talking to Austin tonight, I do in a sense, feel better about some things. He knows the right things to say at the right time.. and it just makes it easier for me to pick up the puzzle pieces that I have scattered everywhere. I think perhaps, though.. I am just having a hard time taking in the fact that Blake will not be at school anymore. Monday I waited after first hour, like I usually do for him.. and after a while it sunk in that he was gone. It's not a tragedy, and maybe I'm making it out to be bigger than it really is.. but I do not take goodbyes very well. He's just in Scottsdale, except that doesn't make me feel any better. I'll be fine, though. One loss brings the beginning of a new gain.