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So I'm beginning to think there is something inheriently flawed about me that makes me drive people away. I don't really feel like explaining why I feel this way, its enough to say that I do.
I need to get ou of the house, I've been home for the last day and a bit thinking and over thinking shit. So I think I'm going to make myself a nice calming CD and a good pumped up cd and walk myself down to the quay and draw and write and get outside my own head. Besides it will keep me from eating and it will burn some bloody cals.
I'm proud of myself, I went into the freezer and there was an ice cream sandwhich, which I know will taste oh so good, I took it out and brought it back to my room, with full intention to eat it however once I got here I had no desire to so I went and put it back away.
I went to a potluck on Canada Day. It was fun, aside from the comment made by some asshole there, "Do you girls liek to eat and throw up or just eat?" Seriously eating disorders are not something to joke about. People die from them. Other then that, I got some good thinspiration (I really think thats a weird word) from the little girls there (little as in small not young) and some other things that went on. I hate this mind of mine its a piece of shit.
I'm going to go now, before I'm not alloud to go out.
~me
I need to get ou of the house, I've been home for the last day and a bit thinking and over thinking shit. So I think I'm going to make myself a nice calming CD and a good pumped up cd and walk myself down to the quay and draw and write and get outside my own head. Besides it will keep me from eating and it will burn some bloody cals.
I'm proud of myself, I went into the freezer and there was an ice cream sandwhich, which I know will taste oh so good, I took it out and brought it back to my room, with full intention to eat it however once I got here I had no desire to so I went and put it back away.
I went to a potluck on Canada Day. It was fun, aside from the comment made by some asshole there, "Do you girls liek to eat and throw up or just eat?" Seriously eating disorders are not something to joke about. People die from them. Other then that, I got some good thinspiration (I really think thats a weird word) from the little girls there (little as in small not young) and some other things that went on. I hate this mind of mine its a piece of shit.
I'm going to go now, before I'm not alloud to go out.
~me