humphh.
TODAY WAS FUN. yes it was. its true. i did many things.....running, new clothes, boston, and to christins house for her suprise birthday party tonite.
it was all fun.
i just dont know. idk.
i can never write as much as i would like. or say everything i would like to. theres just so much....that could be said...that i want to say. and i know it just sounds all confusing...
nothing seems in its place. nothing. and it just makes me sad.....all the time.
i just want to snap my fingers and have things the right way.
but everything is messed and in pieces
and i know that i myself have to put it back together.
and i know it all takes time
but i feel thats the one thing that makes it hurt so much
as time passes
and i spend it on all these "to do" lists
i feel it also passing
on all the things and people
i really love.
and in the end
thats the only thing
i truely care about.