but i am married to your charms and grace
the potential to actually get to live in jared and ryan's house next year was presented last night. its a stretch and there are quite a number of things that would have to be worked out, but i'm imagining it..and i want it so badly. lindsay and i could live downstairs, where jared and ryan are now, for the first four months, until january i think. then steff would come back from vietnam and lindsay and i could then share jared's room, and she (and terrance) would have ryan's. hm, actually, i wouldn't want jared's room..i don't like the thought of what's gone on in there..we could switch the beds and have two in ryan's.. anyway, those first four months would be 600 per month for our own rooms in a beach house. then when steff came back, it would either be 300 or 400 per month, depending on terrance. that is such a fucking sweet deal. oh my god i want this so badly.
ryan brought up this possibility last night. then david was like, "but do you really want to live with jared?" and i would not mind at all. or, it would at least be wirth some ocassional issues. they'd be in their own world upstairs. i like never even see melissa who lives in the same apartment as me this year, so i know its easy to not see people you live with. but i don't think jared would be at all keen on this idea.. i just don't know if things will ever be comfortable with us. as ryan said, we're reminders to one another of really shitty times that we'd prefer not to think about. heh, he also said he'd interpreted jared's reason for not being able to really be friends with me as a difficulty in being friends with me without being attracted to me. i don't know how true that is, but its a nicer thought than my assumption that he just didn't care about me enough to try anymore.
mer, so much lameness.
and now i've gone and fallen for teddy! his best friend! ryan was like, "oh my god how have you not talked to jared about this?" mocking the whole situation, and saying he was going to tell him.
sigh. i don't know. hopefully i get to finally talk to teddy today. who fucking knows what will happen with all this.
ryan brought up this possibility last night. then david was like, "but do you really want to live with jared?" and i would not mind at all. or, it would at least be wirth some ocassional issues. they'd be in their own world upstairs. i like never even see melissa who lives in the same apartment as me this year, so i know its easy to not see people you live with. but i don't think jared would be at all keen on this idea.. i just don't know if things will ever be comfortable with us. as ryan said, we're reminders to one another of really shitty times that we'd prefer not to think about. heh, he also said he'd interpreted jared's reason for not being able to really be friends with me as a difficulty in being friends with me without being attracted to me. i don't know how true that is, but its a nicer thought than my assumption that he just didn't care about me enough to try anymore.
mer, so much lameness.
and now i've gone and fallen for teddy! his best friend! ryan was like, "oh my god how have you not talked to jared about this?" mocking the whole situation, and saying he was going to tell him.
sigh. i don't know. hopefully i get to finally talk to teddy today. who fucking knows what will happen with all this.