excuse me while i vomit........
uggghh!!!!so i ate taco bell last night for dinner and i totally got uber sick from it.i puked 3 times in a row.yuck!!!i vow here and now to never eat that shit again.i had a mexican pizza and a chicken soft taco.something wasnt quite right.it was utterly disgusting.so beware of food poisoning if you eat at the 6th ave. taco bell.aside from that i was kinda in a pissy mood last night.im not too sure why.i had a lot of things running through my head.im a lil confused.im bored with my life at this moment.im probly going to work at pacsun and carmike(again).im experienced at carmike so it'll be easy and pacsun offers a 30% discount which rocks so i can hook people up.ashley is choosing to be nice to me lately which is fishy....its sad that when someones nice to you you cant just accept the gesture and return it.you have to play it safe and assume theres a catch.with him who really knows.its good if we are getting along but i never take it for anymore than its worth.im glad hes acting more like a father(sorta)than he was.hes always 2 steps behind on everything.o well ive grown use to it by now.im not sure what i want right now either.i like this guy but i dont really care to date seriously.im too bitter to offer much of me to anyone at all.i dont feel anybody has earned the right to be deserving of my undivided attention just yet.ive been hurt too badly to just loan myself out to another loner.i may sound a lil conceited or stuck up but ya know who cares i have earned that right.i look at my son and realize that no other love or affection from any other guy matters at all.he loves me unconditionally and will never break my heart.EMO EMO EMO!!!!!blah.sorry but this feeling seems to dominate me lately.itll pass.it always has.------so i am pretty much stuck in the house til halloween its the only way i can get out.i have nobody to watch brielan before then.so im sure thats deeply upseting since i hang out with so many of you(sarcastic voice).owell i dont feel im missing out on all that much.people are so lame now.im going to end this before i get offensive.later