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an early entry
its like a quarter to 10
been up since around 9 or so
had soem coffee wit teh moms
and i just made an omelete
and its kinda good
i never really made these things that great
mom justleft
shes always pissed about something
which just killed my appetite =)
coffee is getting cold
so, so far, my morning sucks, did not know why i even woke up early
my sleeping schedule is ionsane lately
yesterday, i slept for 14 hours
today, half of that, and im wide awake
but yea, i just ate my omelette
was kinda hungry
ddint eat at all yesterday
except for that 1am salad lol
sigh*
the past 2 weeks have been gay as helllll
my mom doesnt stop bitching
my dad doesnt stop reitterating what my mom says, cause he cant speak for himself
so thats gay
been chilling like everyday which is my highpoint lol
finally gonna beat a nintendo game today
so eh
my mom is nuts
lmao
she just came in kicking boxes like all over the place
whats wrong with people
i think its just women
!
haha
sure
thiers a few things i want to write about
but dont hav the words for
i mean, everything sounds good in my head, but thtas my head, and theirs still the challange of getting it out of my head and onto here.
most people nowadays ask me about christina
hows she doing, how were* doing and such
and i really dont know what to say?
were not togetehr anymore
and it usually stops thiers.
i dont know how else to explain it
she was bored with me?
and went on to someone else
rediculously fast
casue i know she was with jeff, wether it be official or not, wauy before i was supposed to come down
i ddint just find out she was with someone the day before as an excuse for me not to come down
i know i bought my ticket, regardless of what she thinks, and i got a voucher for it
u were with jeff beforehand
cause its impossible to just be like ok, your not coming? POOF! a new bf, like the same day
and i know you hooked up with him b efore the week i was supposed to come down, i just wanted you to tell me for yourself
i hated you for what you did with andrew
but you told me, so i forgave you
but with this?
your trying to play out this lie
trying to get me to forget about you..
you want me to forget about you?
but you want me to be your freind..
i dont understand, how can you do this to me? then ask me to be your best freind again?
why, so u can get bored with me, and go find someone else to replace me? like you just did? lol
i dunno
i dont understand, how you can just stop loving someone like, just stop, i dont love you anymore type of thing
you said you loved me the other night, but i know exactly what thats means...
i love you, your my freind, or please be my freind, which is what you asked me
not im in love with you, which you shoul be, cause u were last week?
or mayb you werent
and im just catching up slowly?
you said it was fading, yea, it was getting hard, but i never loved you any less because of the distance or not communicating
i guess distractions come along, that are better suited for us
as much as i hate what is going on, you said your happy
so i guess i cant do anything about it
who am i do disrupt someones happiness? especially the girl i love.. =(
you asked me to forget about you
thats never going to happen, lol, even if i wanted* to try, that wouldnt happen....sigh* =/
i hope you had a great easter
i hope dinner was succesful, hope the family likes jeff
im not being sarcastic
i just
i dunno
im lost ya know...
everything we had
is just, like, gone ya know
all of it, just like that, just gone, poof, erased =(
i was supportive when we werent together when you were sorta with emre, or were trying with him
way back when..
so i guess i dont have a choice now...
good luck with jeff.
i hope school is going well
i know work is well, cough* sorta easy to guess that.. =/
but yea
this whole entry is like a letter, shouldve just written one... sheesh* lol
hoobastank needs to go off right now.
good, replace with nas.. lol
i dont know what im going to go do now..
im bored
and now ive made myself sad
fuck
gay
update whenver
later
~Dan.
1/1
an early entry
its like a quarter to 10
been up since around 9 or so
had soem coffee wit teh moms
and i just made an omelete
and its kinda good
i never really made these things that great
mom justleft
shes always pissed about something
which just killed my appetite =)
coffee is getting cold
so, so far, my morning sucks, did not know why i even woke up early
my sleeping schedule is ionsane lately
yesterday, i slept for 14 hours
today, half of that, and im wide awake
but yea, i just ate my omelette
was kinda hungry
ddint eat at all yesterday
except for that 1am salad lol
sigh*
the past 2 weeks have been gay as helllll
my mom doesnt stop bitching
my dad doesnt stop reitterating what my mom says, cause he cant speak for himself
so thats gay
been chilling like everyday which is my highpoint lol
finally gonna beat a nintendo game today
so eh
my mom is nuts
lmao
she just came in kicking boxes like all over the place
whats wrong with people
i think its just women
!
haha
sure
thiers a few things i want to write about
but dont hav the words for
i mean, everything sounds good in my head, but thtas my head, and theirs still the challange of getting it out of my head and onto here.
most people nowadays ask me about christina
hows she doing, how were* doing and such
and i really dont know what to say?
were not togetehr anymore
and it usually stops thiers.
i dont know how else to explain it
she was bored with me?
and went on to someone else
rediculously fast
casue i know she was with jeff, wether it be official or not, wauy before i was supposed to come down
i ddint just find out she was with someone the day before as an excuse for me not to come down
i know i bought my ticket, regardless of what she thinks, and i got a voucher for it
u were with jeff beforehand
cause its impossible to just be like ok, your not coming? POOF! a new bf, like the same day
and i know you hooked up with him b efore the week i was supposed to come down, i just wanted you to tell me for yourself
i hated you for what you did with andrew
but you told me, so i forgave you
but with this?
your trying to play out this lie
trying to get me to forget about you..
you want me to forget about you?
but you want me to be your freind..
i dont understand, how can you do this to me? then ask me to be your best freind again?
why, so u can get bored with me, and go find someone else to replace me? like you just did? lol
i dunno
i dont understand, how you can just stop loving someone like, just stop, i dont love you anymore type of thing
you said you loved me the other night, but i know exactly what thats means...
i love you, your my freind, or please be my freind, which is what you asked me
not im in love with you, which you shoul be, cause u were last week?
or mayb you werent
and im just catching up slowly?
you said it was fading, yea, it was getting hard, but i never loved you any less because of the distance or not communicating
i guess distractions come along, that are better suited for us
as much as i hate what is going on, you said your happy
so i guess i cant do anything about it
who am i do disrupt someones happiness? especially the girl i love.. =(
you asked me to forget about you
thats never going to happen, lol, even if i wanted* to try, that wouldnt happen....sigh* =/
i hope you had a great easter
i hope dinner was succesful, hope the family likes jeff
im not being sarcastic
i just
i dunno
im lost ya know...
everything we had
is just, like, gone ya know
all of it, just like that, just gone, poof, erased =(
i was supportive when we werent together when you were sorta with emre, or were trying with him
way back when..
so i guess i dont have a choice now...
good luck with jeff.
i hope school is going well
i know work is well, cough* sorta easy to guess that.. =/
but yea
this whole entry is like a letter, shouldve just written one... sheesh* lol
hoobastank needs to go off right now.
good, replace with nas.. lol
i dont know what im going to go do now..
im bored
and now ive made myself sad
fuck
gay
update whenver
later
~Dan.
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