Anydayman
So sometimes I still wonder what life could have been if I had takena different path to this point. It turns out... that no matter how hard I think about it, I will never know what would have been. So I decide to steer away from that. Life is good, sure there are things I miss. For instance, I love being around my mom and dad and brother. But there is something missing. My sister. We grew up together and sometimes I feel like i dont have my best friend around. But its ok because I know we can still talk anytime. And I know jsut because we live far apart, that doesnt mean we cant still hang out some time. So thats one thing I truly miss is talking with her because she is the only one who really gets my humor and that is something I love about her. She will laugh at stuff that I make up that is really retarded. And I love my wife but even she has enough of it from time to time. When she laughs I laugh and it is a good time had by all...well at least her and I while everyone else around is left stupified by my idiocy. Anyways, another thing I really miss is my other best friend. Krentz is the best friend Ive ever had outside of family. Another person who can tolerate insane gibberish and blabber that really has no bearing on life... with the exception that is it relevant to every topic that could be spoken of. We can yak on and on about stuff that would make people offended when we are really just using our power of farce and misconstrued reality. Its bonds like this that really make me love being myself. So occasionally I have to speak to them and get my dosage of this madness so that I do not fall victim to the serious world. For if I fall to these overbearing workhorses that insist on striving to be the best just like everyone other corporate monster, I may never live to see the end. And what I mean by 'live' is that living is not just substantial. Its all about "living". Maybe Im not doing a good job at explaining this, but I know someone who can.
Ferris Bueller: " Life moves pretty fast, if you dont stop and look around once in a while you might miss it."
I feel that makes a profound statement. Besides its not that I dont wanna be at the top of the corporate foodchain, its jsut there are other ways to get there and other ways to conduct yourself once you are there. I.E. my dearest dad. He is still hardcore weird. He hasnt changes. Sure hes very organized and he gets the job done, but he knows how to throw down and have a good time. This is what I mean. Life is more than money or possessions. Its about bonds that you have with people. You cant just "make" them they just happen. I wouldnt be able to find someone down here to bond with like any of the people Ive mentioned. It just happens. And of course life is about Jesus Christ and living for him. But I think there is more to that. I think that while on earth you need to find people who can keep you sane even if its just acting insane together to make it happen. I mean i can count how many people I genereally can bond with on two hands. And this is using only 20% of the second hand. So while I am around 66.67% of the people that I can truly bond with, that is still a failing grade according to public schools nowadays. So hopefully one day I will be closer to all of the people that are so very important to me. But in the mean time I hope that they feel at least somewhat the same way I do. And to be honest I doubt there will be many other people reading to this point other than those people on my 1.2 hands. Should anyone else have read this far, Thank you and I appreciate your taking interest in my thoughts. I also want anyone else to know that has hit this point, it is very important that you find this people to bond with. And I dont mean you need to start asking people about it, and I also dont think you should look for it. I think you should let it happen. Because thats the way it will."Life has many twists and turns, but you just have to hold on to what is right and let it happen." -Daniel Nelson And with that I will leave you with a wonderful song from a movie I saw that I really enjoy. Something called Garden State. This movie is about a place so dispicable, so crappy and full of louse you would think there is no good... but what you find is there is always a glimmer of hope even in the hopeless. Have a good (insert time of day here).
I am thinking it's a sign that the freckles
In our eyes are mirror images and when
We kiss they're perfectly aligned
And I have to speculate that God himself
Did make us into corresponding shapes like
Puzzle pieces from the clay
True, it may seem like a stretch, but
Its thoughts like this that catch my troubled
Head when you're away when I am missing you to death
When you are out there on the road for
Several weeks of shows and when you scan
The radio, I hope this song will guide you home
They will see us waving from such great
Heights, 'come down now,' they'll say
But everything looks perfect from far away,
'come down now,' but we'll stay...
I tried my best to leave this all on your
Machine but the persistent beat it sounded
Thin upon listening
That frankly will not fly. you will hear
The shrillest highs and lowest lows with
The windows down when this is guiding you home
Postal Service... Redone by Iron and Wine
Ferris Bueller: " Life moves pretty fast, if you dont stop and look around once in a while you might miss it."
I feel that makes a profound statement. Besides its not that I dont wanna be at the top of the corporate foodchain, its jsut there are other ways to get there and other ways to conduct yourself once you are there. I.E. my dearest dad. He is still hardcore weird. He hasnt changes. Sure hes very organized and he gets the job done, but he knows how to throw down and have a good time. This is what I mean. Life is more than money or possessions. Its about bonds that you have with people. You cant just "make" them they just happen. I wouldnt be able to find someone down here to bond with like any of the people Ive mentioned. It just happens. And of course life is about Jesus Christ and living for him. But I think there is more to that. I think that while on earth you need to find people who can keep you sane even if its just acting insane together to make it happen. I mean i can count how many people I genereally can bond with on two hands. And this is using only 20% of the second hand. So while I am around 66.67% of the people that I can truly bond with, that is still a failing grade according to public schools nowadays. So hopefully one day I will be closer to all of the people that are so very important to me. But in the mean time I hope that they feel at least somewhat the same way I do. And to be honest I doubt there will be many other people reading to this point other than those people on my 1.2 hands. Should anyone else have read this far, Thank you and I appreciate your taking interest in my thoughts. I also want anyone else to know that has hit this point, it is very important that you find this people to bond with. And I dont mean you need to start asking people about it, and I also dont think you should look for it. I think you should let it happen. Because thats the way it will."Life has many twists and turns, but you just have to hold on to what is right and let it happen." -Daniel Nelson And with that I will leave you with a wonderful song from a movie I saw that I really enjoy. Something called Garden State. This movie is about a place so dispicable, so crappy and full of louse you would think there is no good... but what you find is there is always a glimmer of hope even in the hopeless. Have a good (insert time of day here).
I am thinking it's a sign that the freckles
In our eyes are mirror images and when
We kiss they're perfectly aligned
And I have to speculate that God himself
Did make us into corresponding shapes like
Puzzle pieces from the clay
True, it may seem like a stretch, but
Its thoughts like this that catch my troubled
Head when you're away when I am missing you to death
When you are out there on the road for
Several weeks of shows and when you scan
The radio, I hope this song will guide you home
They will see us waving from such great
Heights, 'come down now,' they'll say
But everything looks perfect from far away,
'come down now,' but we'll stay...
I tried my best to leave this all on your
Machine but the persistent beat it sounded
Thin upon listening
That frankly will not fly. you will hear
The shrillest highs and lowest lows with
The windows down when this is guiding you home
Postal Service... Redone by Iron and Wine