General
I have three seperate things I wanted to do tonight. One I found out about a week or two ago, one last week, and one just yesterday, and each achieved precedence over the last. For some reason, realizing I was vaguely triple comitted and probably didn't have time to post inspired me to post here again.
It's been a while, but not actually as long as it seems. I have a post on Jan 31st which I wrote hurriedly in the library. In it I described how Tuesday (which I called my easiest day) felt both busy and free and yet accomplishment-less, because I only did enough to get by and that seems to be a trend. I would actually consider Tuesdays to be my busiest day, but the point is a valid one... I could be a lot more productive. I made it private because I meant to dwell on it more before making it public, but I never made the time for it.
Lately, I feel as though I've been living on the surface of things. I've become much more impulsive and much less thoughtful, in the sense that I think about things less than I used to before I speak or act. I think that's made me both more argumentative and more forgetful. On the flipside, of course, I'm doing and saying things that I probably would never have been able to do or say before, which most of the time I think is a good thing. But my feeling right now is that I need to bear down on myself and pull some things together.
I am not writing a thesis this term, but I have 45 pages of writing due in a couple of weeks that I haven't even started yet. I also get the vague feeling that job application deadlines are wooshing past me as I lethargically take a week just to make the smallest changes to my resume. If you know me you know I'm pretty ok with the idea of pushing things off until the last minute, but I'm beginning to become fed up with the whole do what you feel, live without a plan thing I've been mostly doing since the blowup last spring. I wondered then when - not if - I would feel an itch for boundaries, set views and self limitations again. Maybe that's starting now. Or maybe I'm just intimidated by the amount of work left to do before the end of the term.
Moving along now, aside from the impending d00m of my procrastinated workload and other objectives, the next few weeks should shape up pretty well. Phil's birthday is coming up and next weekend we're throwing a party for him in our spiffy, newly cleaned apartment. The following weekend is perhaps when Stache Bash should have been :P. But the next weekend is Jews In The Woods, and I'm genuinely interested as to how I am going to react to that in my current, mishmash state of mind. We'll see what it is. The weekend after that is my cousin's Bat Mitzvah and a few days after that I go to Puerto Rico for Spring Break!!!!! Oh man and I almost forgot, Margo mentioned when she was here before that she might come back up for the last week of the term, inbetween Bat-Mitzvah and Puerto Rico... whew. Oh and after Puerto Rico I'm probably going to spend a couple of days in NYC before flying out to Chicago/Milwaukee for four days to see my brother and family, finally returning to campus Tuesday night of week 1. So yah. I can't think of any fun weekday activities but frankly, I have plenty of things I can work on then. Should be busy and mostly fun, with my only fear that I won't get my act together and that I'll still do everything, but be ill prepared for a lot of it and it won't be as great as it should be (this especially includes work). I should point out that that Bat-Mitzvah weekend is going to be even more particularly busy because it's finals-weekend, too.
So much to be said, and even I don't know what among it I consider important. I have a meeting at 4:30 which I'm considering skipping, but that won't stop me from using it as a pretext for ending this post.
It's been a while, but not actually as long as it seems. I have a post on Jan 31st which I wrote hurriedly in the library. In it I described how Tuesday (which I called my easiest day) felt both busy and free and yet accomplishment-less, because I only did enough to get by and that seems to be a trend. I would actually consider Tuesdays to be my busiest day, but the point is a valid one... I could be a lot more productive. I made it private because I meant to dwell on it more before making it public, but I never made the time for it.
Lately, I feel as though I've been living on the surface of things. I've become much more impulsive and much less thoughtful, in the sense that I think about things less than I used to before I speak or act. I think that's made me both more argumentative and more forgetful. On the flipside, of course, I'm doing and saying things that I probably would never have been able to do or say before, which most of the time I think is a good thing. But my feeling right now is that I need to bear down on myself and pull some things together.
I am not writing a thesis this term, but I have 45 pages of writing due in a couple of weeks that I haven't even started yet. I also get the vague feeling that job application deadlines are wooshing past me as I lethargically take a week just to make the smallest changes to my resume. If you know me you know I'm pretty ok with the idea of pushing things off until the last minute, but I'm beginning to become fed up with the whole do what you feel, live without a plan thing I've been mostly doing since the blowup last spring. I wondered then when - not if - I would feel an itch for boundaries, set views and self limitations again. Maybe that's starting now. Or maybe I'm just intimidated by the amount of work left to do before the end of the term.
Moving along now, aside from the impending d00m of my procrastinated workload and other objectives, the next few weeks should shape up pretty well. Phil's birthday is coming up and next weekend we're throwing a party for him in our spiffy, newly cleaned apartment. The following weekend is perhaps when Stache Bash should have been :P. But the next weekend is Jews In The Woods, and I'm genuinely interested as to how I am going to react to that in my current, mishmash state of mind. We'll see what it is. The weekend after that is my cousin's Bat Mitzvah and a few days after that I go to Puerto Rico for Spring Break!!!!! Oh man and I almost forgot, Margo mentioned when she was here before that she might come back up for the last week of the term, inbetween Bat-Mitzvah and Puerto Rico... whew. Oh and after Puerto Rico I'm probably going to spend a couple of days in NYC before flying out to Chicago/Milwaukee for four days to see my brother and family, finally returning to campus Tuesday night of week 1. So yah. I can't think of any fun weekday activities but frankly, I have plenty of things I can work on then. Should be busy and mostly fun, with my only fear that I won't get my act together and that I'll still do everything, but be ill prepared for a lot of it and it won't be as great as it should be (this especially includes work). I should point out that that Bat-Mitzvah weekend is going to be even more particularly busy because it's finals-weekend, too.
So much to be said, and even I don't know what among it I consider important. I have a meeting at 4:30 which I'm considering skipping, but that won't stop me from using it as a pretext for ending this post.