why does life have to be this way?
i hate the little surprises and twists that life trows at you. i feel like i have been alienated by everyone. i have no contact with anyone outside of school. i spend most of my time alone. what happened? it wasnt that long ago that i had everything, now here i am, trying desperatly to hold on to the last strands of what was. im trying to make a better effort to keep my friends, i just feel like i have been moved straight to the front lines. i dont know what i did wrong. maybe when i leave town, pack up my things and find a new place, i will be able to find someone. i know you're there but i dont ever see you, or hear from you. it hit me like a slap in the face. im also really enjoying all the pressure im getting from my mom about college. regardless of whether or not i get into college, i am deffinetly moving out, possibly away. i just dont know what it is i really feel. im just confused, dissapointed and upset.