i still live!
Been busy with other things, and didn't really have anything worth righting about. AND sometimes writing about certain things only makes them more..solid, like if it was something that was bothering me, it might actually make it bother me more because I've actually just taken the time to think about it and write it out. So! Anyways, busy with school and whatnot..not a lot of time! Been torn between feeling sorta dejected and not really caring because I don't have time , and knowing that feeling that way is sorta dumb anyways.
I made jen a little annoyed the other day. She was suppsosed to be coming over to visit and talk about something, but she had to cancel cuz she was tired from work, which I totally understand. But I was bummed out because we had planned it that past sunday and I was looking foward to showing her these pics i did all week. And of course i couldnt SAY that to her because it would have made her feel bad probably and that was unecessary. I also knew, because I haven't been in the best mood lately cuz of period and what not, that ANYTHING that was about to come out of my mouth probably would have come out sounding whiney and angry, so I decided not to say anything. But of course she knew something was wrong, which then led to her being annoyed that I didnt just tell her. So it was a big lose lose situation. If I had told her, it would have seemed like I couldnt understand her being tired and wanting to just chill out, like I needed her to come over or something right then and there or i was going to have a breakdown you know? Blah, but I called and told her why I was like that today. Its just like..the reasons i was upset in my head are the things that you just shouldnt inflict on someone because it seems so whiney "but i was looking foward to this aaall week!" Yeah..no. So that's whats been going on with me most recently.
I'm tired and hungry!
I made jen a little annoyed the other day. She was suppsosed to be coming over to visit and talk about something, but she had to cancel cuz she was tired from work, which I totally understand. But I was bummed out because we had planned it that past sunday and I was looking foward to showing her these pics i did all week. And of course i couldnt SAY that to her because it would have made her feel bad probably and that was unecessary. I also knew, because I haven't been in the best mood lately cuz of period and what not, that ANYTHING that was about to come out of my mouth probably would have come out sounding whiney and angry, so I decided not to say anything. But of course she knew something was wrong, which then led to her being annoyed that I didnt just tell her. So it was a big lose lose situation. If I had told her, it would have seemed like I couldnt understand her being tired and wanting to just chill out, like I needed her to come over or something right then and there or i was going to have a breakdown you know? Blah, but I called and told her why I was like that today. Its just like..the reasons i was upset in my head are the things that you just shouldnt inflict on someone because it seems so whiney "but i was looking foward to this aaall week!" Yeah..no. So that's whats been going on with me most recently.
I'm tired and hungry!