Sigh
One more day by myself.
I feel like I'm just counting the hours going past. Things I do just mark the time that I'm by myself.
I need to go walking up the mountain tonight... but the thought of doing so again by myself depresses me further.
I spent an hour today pounding balls into a backboard. Nobody to play that with either.
Bryan (Ik) posted an examination of his life today. I'm not alone feeling depressed and alone. But despite his pain, I can only feel envy for him. He's got friends who seek him out and want to be around him. Nobody does that for me.
But he's down as well... and what he said touched me. I asked him if he wanted to do anything and that I would love to get to know him better. I don't know if he'll reply. Probably not. But at least I reached out. I don't know how else to make friends.
I feel like I'm just counting the hours going past. Things I do just mark the time that I'm by myself.
I need to go walking up the mountain tonight... but the thought of doing so again by myself depresses me further.
I spent an hour today pounding balls into a backboard. Nobody to play that with either.
Bryan (Ik) posted an examination of his life today. I'm not alone feeling depressed and alone. But despite his pain, I can only feel envy for him. He's got friends who seek him out and want to be around him. Nobody does that for me.
But he's down as well... and what he said touched me. I asked him if he wanted to do anything and that I would love to get to know him better. I don't know if he'll reply. Probably not. But at least I reached out. I don't know how else to make friends.