Somethings never change
Well I was sitting in Sociology again today...you know what that means, I was of course not paying attention and thinking...Some of the decisions that we make in our lives can effect you to the end. Why does this have to happen? Why can't you just do something and then not regret it, or always have it on your mind. It seems that I slipp into doing things to alter my state of conciousness so that I dont have to face the things that are on my mind constantly. Its not a matter that I do not do my school work I manage to finish it fine, but as soon as I finish it I am gone...I am trying to straighten my self out but nothing is working. I smoke more now than ever, I have been high the passed 3 days, I drink to much too offten. My life feels like it is slowly in a spiral going down. For every step that I take forwards I am really taking two backwards. Nothing is the same anymore...