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Im so freaking confused right now, Im confused about elly and me. Dont get me wrong i love her to death and i want to marry her but i strongly believe the feeling isnt mutual. Friday night things were said by her and they cut deep, real deep and yesterday we were talking and i thought we figured all that out but then towards the end of our convosation more hurtful things were said the main one was the fact she wants to be with me but wants to be out the screw other people. and that hurts so fucking bad. Our relationship is boring to her and i cant change that, i want Elly for the rest of my life but i feel like im holding her back cause she wants to do all this stuff and if i dont let her i'll lose her but if i do i'll lose her, its the story of my life, i NEVER get what i want. All i want is "My Girl" elly to love me and not want to do all this stuff she wants to. And i no i cant make her love me cause it dont work like that, but im so head fucked at the moment i dunno what to think, shes the love of my life i only want her and i dont think that really matters to her. People say shes not a serious relationship person and shes believing them i mean what the fuck of course shes a serious relationship person everyone is. IF you want a long relationship you can be in one and its even easier then that for my baby i want her and no one else im in this for the long run with her so all she has to do is be in the long run with me. All i want is ELLY, ELLY ELLY ELLY ELLY thats all i fucknig want is her and i feel as if i cant have her which i hate, i just need to know how elly feels about us and me but im so freaking scared to ask incase she doesnt want me. I love her with all my heart and soul. She really is........... i cant even explain it cause words simple dont come close to what she means to me. Elly my love if you read this i want you to no that you are my world and i wouldnt trade your love for anything your love and approval mean the fucking world to me sexy and i want your heart, My heart is yours for aslong as you want it. im just rambling about shit now i needa go calm down im starting to trip out but first i have to say. Elly if i dont let you get with chanel when im there will you dump me or lose love for me cause im still thinking aboutit cause i dont wanna let you do it then you leave me for her or to go screwin around or i dont wanna let you do it and you keep doing it behind my back or start screwin ppl behind my back. I Love you Elly i truely do. Im just freaking out elly ignore what i've wrote im just scared of losing you cause i think you underestimate how much i really love you. Im sorry for being a shit boyfriend and being so boring but i have tried to make you so happy and make this a good relationship for you and a fun one at that i really did try. I love you elly and i've finished writing and im sorry for everything and i love you sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much. Bye
P.S. i love you elly welly your my world and i want to marry you.
P.S. i love you elly welly your my world and i want to marry you.