Counting down the days...........

[danny_boi07]

Hey everyone, im a lil down i wouldnt mind dying right about now that would be kool, cause in life there is too much stress i gotta be a somebody i got a girlfriend who kinda hates me i mean i wanted to be with her till death do us part but life is way too hard id like to just fade away and be forgotten i really would id prefer it if i was never born, if i was like a miscarriage or something or my father hit my mum in the stomach when she was pregnant with me and killed me :) i cant do this anymore i cant be a somebody i gotta get so much shit with like no money my car is crap and all these people have it so easy they get what they want and i have had to scrap for every lil fucking thing i own and its too much i just cant do it anymores to many expectations of me i cant live up to i aint anything i never was and never will be but they cant see that they all think im some smart guy with a bright future when im not im jsut your everyday fucking moron, i got no friends, dunno how i got a girlfriend she doesnt deserve to be treated how i treat her so if i die like i will soon she'll be free :) Have you's ever had that feeling in your heart when your heart feels like it just sinks and it being squeezed so tight it hurts its a great feeling i remember i use to get these sharp pains in my heart where i couldnt breath for like 10-30seconds they were great use to bring me to my knees they did but fucking scary the first time it happened it freaked me out but i havent had one of those for ages its a pain that feels good and it cant really be explained. I hate myself so much i cant stand myself its kinda sad. i mean me and elle finally got us back on the right track and i fuck it up again.....why you ask well its becuase im a stupid fucking moron!! but noone will believe me but im telling you all IM A STUPID FUCKING CUNT! so hopefully you'll believe me now. i mean i wanted to die back in the day when i was younger and now the feeling is back bigger and stronger then before and so the chapter of my life called "Daniel's Demise" begins lets hope its a short chapter and if you understand what demise means then you'll understand how its gonna be a short chapter. but lets all cross our fingers for a short chapter in my life. I mean what is our reason for living its not for happiness cause everytime you get it it gets fucking crushed by sorrow or angry or something else. and there is so much more shit out there that when your up and happy it just grabs you by the fucking throat and sticks a fucking needle in ya eye. just had that happen to me all the time its like it was a war for what would win Sorrow with like 10 billion troops and happiness with 100,000 troops lol there is no fucking way happiness can win cause when it puts up a defense sorrow just crushes it with a superior feeling and its just not fair its a battle you can never ever win so i surrender and i choose a dishonorable death Muahahahaha may it be slow and full of pain just so i no i feel something beside sadness/sorrow. well i've said enough cause this was ment to be short but my fucking stupid arse rambled on and on so fair well and goodbye.

P.S i love you elly always have and always will you'll be in my heart forever