flabbergasted =(
so i dont thin ki had teh best phoen interview iwth her on monday.. becuase i was just oto excited and i was flabbergasted. and she told me i could cal back in case i had more questios.. so i calel her that afternoon aroudn 4.. but she probably left office. so i caeld again today at 950 in the morning.. and seh didnt' call back or answer. maybe sehs in meeting. maybe hses just relaly busy.. or maybe she doesn't wna ot tla to me becuase she knows i didnt' get t. omg. i can't handle this. this new phase of not being able ot think about anything else. or even funcion like a normal human being. i wnat this so bad.. more than anything.. anyone. please please God..please.