i did it!
finally through everything i did it. i.... well audrey broke up with me last night and im not sad about it. i think it will be good because when i am crying everynight its really lame. she has been there for me more than anyone else but then again she has made me cry more than anyone else too. i wasnt happy when i was with her for the second time, i was holding on to the memory of how we used to be and to tell u the truth i dont think it will ever be that good between us again. audrey and i fit together like puzzle pieces and i really felt like we were suppose to be together but obviously not. maybe it was some sort of puppy love a high school romance or something. i do not regret falling in love with her. or falling out of love as a matter of fact but i do regret being so naive. and giving her my heart to soon. she always tells me it is hard for her to trust people because she has been screwed over so many times but i am proud to say that i have never once screwed her over. i have always done what she asks when she asks it and always on time and ready. i loved her so much and my love with her will never compare to anyone elseses it wil just change.
when i wanted to break up with her i couldnt because i was afraid she would find someone else and treat them better than me. but if she is that happy with that person than obviously there was something wrong with our relationship and it wasnt meant to be. maybe we took things to fast i mean we were engaged by the 4th month we were dating. but we had known each other a while.... it is a little fast. she is going to be moving to california anyways so i dont see how things would have worked out anyways. her gma (most important person) is really sick and she will be going down there after not to long. i dont know what i will be doing with my life but all i know is im getting out of this town.
im almost graduated and im so excited about it. before spring break i was thinking about just running away from here and never coming bak. school didnt even matter i went like once a week maybe... but some how i realized that im to awesome to being some low life that doesnt graduate. I WILL GRADUATE its important to me. even tho alot of people dont think it is.
now my parents are douche bags... they know nothing about my life and cant know anything. when they even caught a glimpse of who i really am when i was with audrey one day... they kicked us out. now imagine if they knew the drugs i was doing and all the other shit i never tell them. when i move out i will be able to live life without lying. i want people to know who i really am. inside and not what i look like i am on the outside. i thot my sister tami supported me through everything but appearently not cause once i actually started to live with her she didnt want my friends over (exept whitney) and she didnt want me and audrey doing anything in the house. she even blocked the logo channel(gay channel) she always freaked out on me about random stuff.....
my work. sucks. except for amy.... amy is the only thing that is cool. they always talk to me like im 2 im always in trouble and they wouldnt accept me if i told them i was bi/lesbian. well the only person at my work that knows is stacey i think. but she has her days when she can be really cool... but because i am so much younger then they are they treat me like im stupid. its dum. i dont wanna work there anymore
so thats life now
it will change soon
when i wanted to break up with her i couldnt because i was afraid she would find someone else and treat them better than me. but if she is that happy with that person than obviously there was something wrong with our relationship and it wasnt meant to be. maybe we took things to fast i mean we were engaged by the 4th month we were dating. but we had known each other a while.... it is a little fast. she is going to be moving to california anyways so i dont see how things would have worked out anyways. her gma (most important person) is really sick and she will be going down there after not to long. i dont know what i will be doing with my life but all i know is im getting out of this town.
im almost graduated and im so excited about it. before spring break i was thinking about just running away from here and never coming bak. school didnt even matter i went like once a week maybe... but some how i realized that im to awesome to being some low life that doesnt graduate. I WILL GRADUATE its important to me. even tho alot of people dont think it is.
now my parents are douche bags... they know nothing about my life and cant know anything. when they even caught a glimpse of who i really am when i was with audrey one day... they kicked us out. now imagine if they knew the drugs i was doing and all the other shit i never tell them. when i move out i will be able to live life without lying. i want people to know who i really am. inside and not what i look like i am on the outside. i thot my sister tami supported me through everything but appearently not cause once i actually started to live with her she didnt want my friends over (exept whitney) and she didnt want me and audrey doing anything in the house. she even blocked the logo channel(gay channel) she always freaked out on me about random stuff.....
my work. sucks. except for amy.... amy is the only thing that is cool. they always talk to me like im 2 im always in trouble and they wouldnt accept me if i told them i was bi/lesbian. well the only person at my work that knows is stacey i think. but she has her days when she can be really cool... but because i am so much younger then they are they treat me like im stupid. its dum. i dont wanna work there anymore
so thats life now
it will change soon