i bet you didn't know the boogie man is a clown......gros bisous et au revior.
i'm ending this fucking journal because it's been nothing but a nuisance to me. i come here to share my feelings about something and some of the time it comes back to bite me in the ass. if i'm really angry or furious, i come and write down my feelings and then i get in a huge fight with the person i'm mad at, mostly josh-at least that's what it seems nowadays, and i tell them to read this retarded thing so they understand why i'm mad. josh, you were telling me to see the other side of the argument, look outside the box, but were you in any way looking at my side of the the argument, looking outside your own damn box?! probably not because you didn't fully comprehend what i was feeling. i don't want to start another fight and i don't want to end our friendship, but i do want a break away from you for a while. this means no trip to st. george. if you want me to think about the situation we're in, you have to put some effort into it too. friendships are a two-way street. that's the problem i had with jason. if i felt he was straying from our relationship i would do anything to get him to stay with me. i was the only one (so it seemed) who wanted that relationship to work. unfortunately i gave in and it ended. i don't want that to happen to our friendship, josh. katie, if you're always sitting at home, why don't you call me to hang out?! just trying to give you a hard time. i think after graduation though i'll be going on a few vacations, mostly with my family, and so i'll hardly ever be home and i'll be working and trying to figure out what the hell i'm doing next year for school. i want to move out but i have no one to live with so i just might stay home. when you and jason move to cedar city, josh, i'll miss you, but i don't know if i'd have time or money to drive down and see you. geez i sound like i'm dying or moving away for good! oh well. i never want to see this journal again and i'm never going to write in it. some part of me has changed and for what reason i don't know, but i have. i'm kinda glad to get rid of this damn thing, but at the same time i have some good memories written in here that have come from only a few months that i will miss. i don't have much else to say but goodbye.